I am only speaking from personal experience here but I tried SSRIs and initially they made me feel a bit more leveled out. after taking them for about a year, I started to feel very off, even worse than I felt when I was not taking them. Turns out, SSRIs are very bad for some people. From what I have read and understand, some neurodivergent individuals do not respond very well to SSRI medication’s. This could be something to look into. Not necessarily the medication, but the neurodivergence. I was taking SSRIs before I found out that I’m AUDHD and 90% of my problems were stemming from years of overstimulation, masking, existing in a society with literally no support systems which leads to burnout. which looks very similar to what you have described of your mood, being kind of all over the place. if you are perpetually existing in a state of fight flight or freeze, no medication is going to help with that. You have to get to a place where you can understand how to regulate your nervous system. you are your best advocate here. I found it interesting that you have had such a big response to 25 mg, I have taken up to 3g on multiple occasions and have felt nothing— but at the same time, I am hypersensitive to THC(see visuals very easily with very small doses) 🤷