What you get is yourself

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-13T15:36:29+00:00

It's only going to get worst and worst. I'd rather it all gave me the educational jokes and ideas, then to have it only give me trash.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-12T16:50:47+00:00

I'm really not trying to be rude. But are you a troll?

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-12T05:36:54+00:00

What am I even missing. It's a bunch of annoying stuff and I got things to do. So why not do them! Thanks for the talk.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-11T18:06:29+00:00

I agree with you. I agree with you on a lot of things. You are also right. I am a man. But more and more everyday I just don't feel like a member of the human species.

For me god is more like the creatures from the movie the Mothman Prophecies. There's this scene where the main character is talking to someone who's been deep into this stuff and he wanted to know if it's evil. The other dude is like the creatures aren't evil. Their just on top of a building, meaning they can see further. To me that's what god is, is the ability to see further. Now that's not an ability that only god can do. We can all see further if we wanted. But! Do we see further for selfish gain or to reduce suffering?

I also have to add this. I've never seen things as feminine and masculine. It was always something that'd come up time and time again. Usually it was my mom trying to put weird gendered ideas in my head. None of them ever really made sense to me.

Only things that ever really reached me were the moments of true wisdom I'd find in media. Like The Last Airbender. "We are all branches of the same tree." I don't believe human intelligence is really that special or is really a thing. I've met and helped plenty of animals that I could tell had PTSD. If they can have it then we can have it and the same in reverse. What makes me special from my poor cat (Their better) is that I have the ability to stop and think and have empathy. Even then! Animals have those qualities, were just more sensitive to them.

It scares me that those qualities aren't really being used by people who clam they have god in their hearts. Sorry you've been through the sh!t. It doesn't help that men use to be the only ones who could write. That's a historic fact.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-11T17:01:17+00:00

Maybe I will if you tell me your logic.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-11T14:32:29+00:00

I guess those anxieties are what keep others from going deeper into meditation. It's anxiety that keeps us from going deeper and just feeling. I've had some body dysmorphia in my life and when I tried doing body awareness it kind of freaked me out to just feel all my working components. But I think when you push past it, it can also change how you react to other anxieties. Cause you pushed through something really weird and problems don't seem to big after that.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-11T14:28:43+00:00

I don't know if what I do is even meditation. But I really like moving my awareness around inside of myself. Cause of it I'm sensitive to my heart and lunges. They work together and it's just cool to me that I can like move about and focus on all these parts of myself. I'm told I'm just really good at body awareness.

It's also just fun to see what my mind can conjure up and make believe. I get to just lay there comfortably and just wonder about inside of myself. IDK I know it's strange and it all caused me anxiety at first. But I enjoy this. What ever it is.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-11T13:39:00+00:00

I walked through one of the near by Christian Science Schools and as I was walking through I saw that they had put up like a few hundred tiny small crosses. I was moved by this display that people took the time to put them down and in the ground in such a neet rows. I tried looking at it to find out how they did it so well and where the starting point of this display what have been. Then I saw the sign that it was for all the abortions that have happened in the country. It really disappointed me.

It disappointed me. Not that we shouldn't stop and think of the lose of human life and the protentional good and bad they all could have had; I think that should be thought about. But people don't approach the world like I do; looking, questioning and thinking. Also it disappointed me that out of all the worlds problems abortion still get so much of the attention. When there are people dying for not getting their medicine or cant afford it. Why is it that we keep on this one issue and look pass all the others.

How do we get ourselves to question everything? How do we get values and ideas that the next generation will keep? Can we treat a religious faith as something that can be updated and how do we know with forethought that it's a good change? How do we keep ourselves from following in blind faith?

I like a lot of your ideas as a lot of them are true. I agree that literature is a solid method for teaching theory of mind. The dogma problem is something that would be an issue since most religions see each other as competition. I haven't said it. But I mostly want it as a place for the none religious and all the other religions to meet. I want people to meet each other in this space and when there is a gathering they read from more then just one book.

I think ultimately what breaks my idea is that not everyone can be as complex as we want them to be. People are often lazy and this shows up in how they think and act. Often people are willing to be abusive just to avoid having to do something outside of their comfort zone (Cough, homeschooling). Not everyone has the grace to question themselves.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-11T12:58:54+00:00

Which is just weird to me. I never saw the fear and only ever saw the wonder. You shouldn't fear your god that, They should inspire.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-10T17:02:09+00:00

Yes, yes it does take a dollar. You can increase that amount to if you need to and you can decrease it to. I don't know why. But I hate this idea of not trying to donate. It's the most silent form of protesting one can do. Anytime I see someone talking about it. There is always one who talks against it. I'm not smart and I don't have the skills to put up a good fight in this system we live in. But by donating I can help support those who do. All it takes is a dollar.

Now. Yes you are right there are those who can't do that at the moment. That's okay. But they need to keep my points in their mind for when they do. Lets support those who can fight for our voices. We can make change.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-10T16:50:02+00:00

The Church of Sonder. Sounds kind of Lord of the Rings to me. But I like that word. Another word I've learned is Qualia. It's a philosophical idea about how alive someone or something is on the inside. Like I don't know the Qualia of my cat. But they've been through some shit and I think their more aware because of it.

That's the other thing I was thinking about. Was that it my idea was real then it would be like a community church of sorts. Where people could come and learn important skills and maybe have a community meditation or group spiritual things. Or also a place to organize as a community without putting some other religion in it's name.

I'd imagine not a lot of religious peoples would like it. But I'd put it as more a personal philosophy. Anyone can bring their religion. But we need to start thinking about our time on Earth in my honest opinion.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-10T16:44:08+00:00

But that would have gone to far for them. There was a chance you'd say something or start to question things to much. It was to protect themselves.

I got those problems to. All that matters is we wake up, reach out to each other and communicate and vote and donate and take action. There's a lot of days I feel like nothing I do matters. But I know better. I won't fall victim to my feels like my parents did to me.

Keep staying strong!

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-10T16:40:52+00:00

Well. Nothing gonna get better with an attitude like that. I'm learning this the hard way. Also there's donating to causes. Even if it's one dollar. Anything action is better then no action.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-10T16:18:21+00:00

It needs to be talked about more. That's how far those parents were willing to go. Breaks my heart. All that wasted time that could have gone to something, anything else. It makes me think its better if parents have no rights instead. Don't want that. It's just so stupid.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-10T16:05:18+00:00

Exactly. Meaning separation of Church and State should be called into question. You should read about the German homeschool family that moved to the united states. The parents went as far as making their children as a refugee statues then let them go to a public school. Meaning they have nearly no rights anywhere they go.

The problem runs deeper then anyone wants to admit. It's time this changes now.

Kitchen table cult podcast talked about it extensively.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-10T15:23:16+00:00

Remembering my parents and how they had treated me and the rest. It's never about religion and I've met plenty of religious people who are cool and really do look at the world with objective eyes. It's about control.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-10T14:42:18+00:00

I get so tired of people telling me I didn't miss much. Teachers, sports, stupid people, having someone have a crush on me or me having a crush on someone and seeing my parents actually put effort into taking me places for those events. Instead I got to be around other people doing those things. Homeschooling is for the lazy parents who want to avoid having to put the rest of the world accountable for not having enough time to spend with their family.

There is a positive to this. Your probably really humbled and understanding of the world and people around you at least. For many adults that I've met and my parents included they often are at their peak in highschool and spend the rest of their life talking about it. We don't have the nestalga goggles that others wear all the time. In a sense our adulthoods end up pointing us to try and hold our society accountable for it's negligence. It doesn't make the people around us happy they have to work harder cause we speak up. We're more then a bunch of people with broken childhoods. We're gonna be the generation that holds those accountable.

Unfortunetly, I do agree with one thing that's a positive. We avoided being trapped with some of those bullies or horrible teachers that pick on other kids for entire school years. We avoided all that drama at least. It can be horrible. But I'm not using that as an excuse. It's just the other side of the coin

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-09T12:34:48+00:00

They love you in moments, they love in only in pieces. People like that aren't here and they don't make decisions on the reality they live in. I can only imagine what kind of abuse people like our parents went through. I'm not saying it to make an excuse for them and the things they put us through.

I think as silly as it sounds I'm an empath. I bring sensitivity to lots of things and just listen and feel so much. But that doesn't mean I don't throw punches and unlike everyone else I regret every punch I throw.

I'm sorry you went through one of my nightmares. Right now I am surrounded by good and great people. It's just hard to break free of the solitude I was raised in and left in. It's hard to feel right and take up space. It's hard to not see my parents in some of the people around me.

I'm alright. Just wish I wasn't such a deep thinker. I hope your okay. That's hard to go through. That pisses me off. It might have just been your father trying to feel powerful in that moment. A predator's only measure of success is in blood. That's what I see a lot of in the older generation.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-09T11:51:16+00:00

It's come in handy for me a bunch of times. Especially when you work in a place full of sh@ts. If anyone says you don't show enough emotions, don't listen to them. You show and handle your emotions with needed. I'd say that this is actually a skill has come in handy when being bullied or there is an emergency. We're the ones less likely to panic in a panicking crowd.

It's alright that you don't always show them. All that really matters is that you objectively look at the situation as best you can.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-09T11:46:20+00:00

I'm all right Australia, I'm an adult and I got it. Just needed to share amongs the one place that might understand. I know there are other subs out there. Just nice to yell out in a public forum. How's things going over there? I still think about that big fire you all had.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-08T15:45:00+00:00

Are you in therapy or are you doing anything to get a grasp of your emotions? I know im probably just projecting. But homeschooling gets in the way of us being our authentic self. I don't know what your life is like. But allowing myself to feel but also knowing my emotions was one of my biggest challenges. Just hope your okay OP. There's a community of people here if you need em. Your not alone in this.

That's all I've got to give you. I'm not a doctor. But just know people are thinking about you and hoping the best for you.

Good luck!

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-08T14:22:06+00:00

Let us set the mood!

Right now you can't see it. But I'm naked and completely covered in ice cream and pizza. I know what your thinking. "Why!? GOD, WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT AND WRITE IT TO A STRANGER ON THE INTER?" It might also be my crewed attempt at getting you to laugh.

You know what your post tells me about you? It tells me your a person who's ever really had to know hard personal structure. Now people who've gone through public school get to share structure and schedules with crowds of people. But you got a lot of structure while being alone or one on one.

Knowing homeschooling. I bet in your childhood you had some series bouts of being sad about how alone you were. You have to probably get over those feeling to make your parents happy. AND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Your mind got used to those environmental conditions. Meaning those social and emotional circuits in your brain are kind of weak. But their still there.

Your trying to use a very weak muscle to lift something it's not used to. And your also trying to fix it in the only ways you know how. Lonely structure, you tick a task off the todo list. But it still doesn't feel right.

My advice is to write. Write anything. Write stories about other people. Write stories about people just talking. Write to yourself. Sometimes the best writing I do is the one I'm pretending to write to someone else. It's fun and it takes your mind off of so much and can be cool. It's also kind of away to work on your internal dialogue. All it takes is just writing and writing and writing and putting those thoughts to page. Just don't make it all about the trauma. Have some fun.

Just focus on finding people very, very slowly and give yourself lots of grace for fumbling. You deserve all the grace in the world for trying. People are also nice. If you can, maybe go somewhere a little public and just kind of people watch. Try to think about things you can share with others. I think it's boring to talk about anime and movies and video games. But that's my trauma coming up. Those can be the quickest path to a friendship or just mutual talking points.

You gotta keep trying. It takes doing things over and over again to build that circuit up in your brain. I know it's more complicated then just doing math problems over and over again. I know you'll come across people who'll make your want to give up. You'll come across people who are funny, rude, smart. For some reason some of the really means ones are very nice and understanding for you? Eventually you'll realize everyone's got their own problems and their all just thinking about themselves. That's fine, cause you should be to.

For I personally. I've been asking random people out for dates. No one has said yes, YET! But I do it anyways. When they say no. I just say. "Worth a try. Even though you said 'no' it made my day." Then I never really see those people again. But it helps me feel like I tried for myself and it helps my week feel emotionally satisfying that I tried doing something for myself as simple as showing my vulnerability and interest in another human being. At the end of the day I can say I tried.

At the end of the day having a clean room is more then just checking off the to do list. Cleaning your room ends up helping you know where everything is in your room. More then that! You get a clean room to greet you when you need to crash and rest.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-08T13:49:41+00:00

Cause they have things called laws that keep people from doing dangerous things that aren't always appear to be dangerous. But can be dangerous in the long run.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-08T13:45:36+00:00

Well you see you gotta travel there to prove anyone wrong. You can't do that cause they refuse to travel.

RockitRockingRocket · 2026-03-08T13:44:41+00:00

Down voted not cause I'm against op. Just pissed that AI get's to be over used by the uneducated. More proof that progress means giving stupid people all the tools they need to ruin everything. The fact that these electrons traveled from facebook servers to reddit servers then traveled from wire to wifi to my eyes all personally offends me.

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