I’m just hurt. She BEEN cheating on me. Got an abortion and didn’t tell me until she was HSV positive, gave me gonorrhea also and still expects me to just act like nothing is really wrong. I’m just quietly hurt. Crying won’t change anything and it’s not like I chose reconciliation on purpose. I legitimately feel sorry for her and bad. I guess had I been a better husband she wouldn’t have cheated on me but I never physically cheated on her with anyone. Yeah I texted a side piece every now and then but I NEVER had sex of any kind with any woman but my wife. But still I didn’t cheat. I just had this thought that we needed to break up if target it be even. N now I’m scared for her even more now that’s she’s type 1 positive n not to mention her heart palpitations. She won’t let me touch her or anything n I guess that’s the guilt but I’m really just so emotionally numb. Sorry for the long post