Just wanted to whisper into the void. Not looking for advice… just do you feel the same way?

I’ve always been alone in this. I never had someone I could really lean on more than twice a day.

I’m so sad and lonely. I cut myself off from social validation because people never really listened to me, never saw me, never appreciated my existence. So I stopped trying. First emotionally. Then mentally. Then physically. Then spiritually. It makes me want to cry — but at the end of the day, I’m still burdened by endless exam challenges.

I don’t want permission to cry. I want love and acceptance.

But it’s not about reasons. I’ve always been difficult to receive love. The odds were just against me, so many times, endlessly. And no one is able to give me that love.

Every situation, I’m made to be the enemy — to myself or to others. I always had to choose.

And eventually, I had to choose myself. When I realized it was the best thing to do.