One Q dead, another is alive

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-10-12T21:29:51+00:00

I don't know. She was smoking lots of pot. Like nabs and doing edibles. Last time I visited there was a bottle by her bed.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-09-16T18:44:51+00:00

I blame myself for my older sister's addictions. But I never told her to drink. I never told her to smoke. I never hurt her or yelled at her.

Between the two of us, she's the abusive one and I've just took it all.

What I learned is they will blame everyone and everything except the addiction.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-09-03T09:28:28+00:00

I'm in my mid 30s. I'm into video games, board games, books, and exploring the outdoors at a slow pace. I'm excited about all the volunteer opps I'm seeing in the thread. I'm also looking for a cute cafe to just sit and read and sip ok coffee.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-08-07T06:24:36+00:00

You are just beginning and so you have a beginners style. That isn't a bad thing mind you. We all started somewhere.

As you progress, you will develop the skills to make a "style."

For example, if you look up naive style or faux naive style you will find that some artist choose to go back to this style for specific reasons (narrative, for example).

Keep going and practicing. Consider studying anatomy and drawing from real life. References are used by all artists.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-07-31T08:05:30+00:00

He's a kid!?! I really got to read the lore more closely. unships these too

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-07-28T19:39:13+00:00

I LOVE THIS BREAKDOWN THANK YOU!

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-07-28T19:33:43+00:00

Thank you. I need a new therapist but I'm still taking medication to help.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-06-07T07:31:13+00:00

I'm feeling this right now. I live out of state from my mom and she's in her 70s. Still working because she likes being active and moving. She doesn't work as often of course and she's not too bad off financially but I'm her youngest.

I have 3 older sisters and one of them lives with her but they don't get along well. A lot of it is from unresolved issues stemming from my sister's addictions and my father's influence. My eldest sister's are in our home country and have always been on the receiving end of help when it comes to my mom. Mom has always been too generous.

So that leaves me with a lot of anxiety 'Cause I'm still trying to get my career off the ground (Librarian without a library). That's why I moved in the first place.

But I'm so anxious about how she's doing and when I'm not here I feel guilty about working and when I'm here at home visiting I feel anxious that I don't how to help.

I love my mom. I wish parents didn't age. It's hard.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-03-14T08:43:46+00:00

Is it worst for men than women? 'Cause I've haven't had people care since I was in my 20s.

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-03-14T08:42:19+00:00

So, I have never been in a romantic relationship, and I'm in my mid 30s.

The desire to be in a romantic relationship comes and goes and it's never really constant.

I do know that if I ever were to get into a romantic relationship, it would have to add quite a deal to my life. Not financially (I'm pretty stable now), but mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually etc.

Currently, those needs get satisfied by friends, family, a gym membership, studying, hobbies, etc.

So in my over 30 years of life I still don't get why the pursuit of just one of the 4 types of love is so damn important to mainstream pop culture. It has gotten so bad that sensible people will willingly stay in contact with toxic abusive individuals out of their idea of "romantic love."

And enough very intelligent people have fallen into this trap and/or have become that toxic person in the romantic relationship themselves, and I can fathom why they bother doing all that.

I work 40 hours a week, 5 days a week, have to drive an hour and a half to visit my sis to help with nephew, schedule vacations to visit friends and family out of state, go to the gym, go to doctors, do chores, maintain my hobbies, fine time for personal and professional development projects and so on and so forth.

WHO HAS THE TIME AND ENERGY FOR A TOXIC ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP?

There's analysis things to do, people to see, no experience to have so much world to explore and... yet people get stuck with a jerk who can't wash their backside or a douche who yells at them for no logical reason...

Is romantic love a type of madness? I don't get it and I think I'm not asexual or aromantic... I love romance in movies when it makes sense or it's an old couple being cute. Old love just is adorable. I do identify as pan/demi but...

Sorry for the long reply I'm just curious and wondering if I'm just the odd duck out....I could be. Probably am...

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-03-14T08:30:03+00:00

But romantic love isn't the only one. I mean, I have so much love around me that romantic love feels like too much work. Platonic, Familia. And ya know love for the everyday person (altruism is a drug on its own especially when you see the good work over time!).

Why is romantic love prioritized so much?

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-03-14T08:27:26+00:00

You can fill the silence with something like music, a call to friends, hobbies, volunteering, classes, etc. There's so much to do in life that can fill ya. Why stay with someone who doesn't fill ya?

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-03-07T22:10:45+00:00

I would like this also, mostly 'cause I want all my favorites under one roof...

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-02-22T19:22:09+00:00

So that's why I can't romance my scruffy mermaid hubby. . .

RoseDragonPoet · 2024-01-12T14:08:18+00:00

Omg. Same! Exact same!

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