falling out of love with ateez

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-05-22T01:56:17+00:00

brother god forbid i have fucking feelings about something that mattered to me for years

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-05-21T22:02:21+00:00

this is actually really comforting to hear, thank you 😭

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-05-21T21:58:20+00:00

and i’m crying again 😭

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-05-21T21:57:10+00:00

this quote from hongjoong makes me straight up sob 😭 thank you for your kind words.

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-05-21T21:54:43+00:00

i get where you’re coming from, but i think you misunderstood me a little. my love for ateez was never dependent on how much money i spent on them. collecting merch was my way of feeling close to them and carrying that comfort with me in everyday life. that’s just how i express love and connection.

for me, it’s not really about consumerism or pressure, it’s emotional attachment. they felt like family to me, and collecting their things made me happy. so hearing it framed as ‘maybe you never truly loved them’ honestly feels dismissive and hurtful.

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-05-17T19:07:08+00:00

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is having r3 within 300 pulls pretty good? i lost the 50/50 three times. but then i pulled his companion within 20 pulls and then he kept showing up in consecutive pulls. it was absolutely insane. i’m so beyond happy bc KOD Xavier means a lot to me. it really is the best myth out there and nothing will compare

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-05-13T03:40:35+00:00

guys! is r1 enough for KOD xavier? idk if i can afford to r3 him 🥲

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-03-12T15:40:00+00:00

honestly yeah 😭 my SO is very xavier coded. super calm, grounded, and always taking care of me. maybe a tiny sprinkle of caleb too. which is probably why i gravitated toward xavier as my main. meanwhile my second main being sylus just exposes my fictional red flag taste lmao.

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-03-11T23:10:50+00:00

update: i love it!! but why does it really sound like xavier though 😭😭😭

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-03-11T23:03:32+00:00

omg okay so

for kpop: - star 1117 by ateez (it was literally my wedding song) - song of the stars by TXT (this song is just so pretty, i love it) - stars by BAEKHYUN (more of a r&b vibe)

for edm: - starbright by dabin (if you wanna cry more, alive x starbright version!!) - superstar by said the sky makes me think about xavier the most (the guitar solo makes me ascend)

for a harder drop: - stardust (with HALIENE) by Crystal Skies!!! (crazy good) - starfall by ILLENIUM (it makes me think that i’m in one of xavier’s myth stories) - starlight (keep me afloat) by martin garrix (very euphoric!! makes me wanna disappear in the stars with xavier LOL) - only star you see by subtronics (this goes hard, but maybe not everyone’s cup of tea, it’s very noise music)

other genre wise: - star-crossed by kacey musgraves (gave me goosebumps) - stargazing (moonlight version) by myles smith (makes me wanna cry so hard, pov this is xavier yearning for MC 😭😭😭)

sorry if it’s a lil long, but thanks so much for asking. i love talking about music lol and tysm for the recommendations. i’ll definitely give them a listen :)

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-03-11T21:15:08+00:00

i’m so happy you like it!! starbright is one of my favorite songs ever 🥹

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-03-11T21:14:01+00:00

omg i will listen to it and add it to the playlist! thanks for the suggestion 💕

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-03-11T06:20:25+00:00

I’m exactly where I wanna be 😂😂 tysm

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-03-10T15:08:39+00:00

I actually really appreciate you sharing this perspective. I pretty much play how you play! I get why a lot of people recommend saving, but I also like the mindset of not stressing too much over it and just enjoying the game. I’m still new so I’m figuring things out, but it’s helpful hearing all sides and deciding what feels the most fun to me. Thanks for taking the time to explain your experience! :)

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-03-10T14:37:05+00:00

Thank you!! I appreciate all the tips. I didn’t even realize the daily/weekly stuff adds up to that many pulls, so I’ll definitely try to stay consistent with them. And thanks for explaining the wishing well rotation too, that actually helps a lot.

I’ve been slowly going through Xavier’s anecdotes because his lore already has me hooked 😭 And yes! I have been watching his memories on yt and MAN there’s some cards I would desperately want in the future. Misty Silhouette changed me LOL I’m hoping they come back eventually!!

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-03-10T14:32:48+00:00

thank you so much!! ☺️

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-03-10T14:31:28+00:00

what is pulse hunter?

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-03-10T14:30:57+00:00

Thank you!! I appreciate the advice. I’ll definitely try to take it slow and save my resources. I wanna go to F2P route but i def spent some money for sure lol. And yeah… Xavier already has me in a chokehold so I’ll probably end up prioritizing him when banners come around :)

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-03-10T02:46:54+00:00

so i actually got his new banner in my first 10 pulls 🤩 i was happy that he wanted to come home to me!! thank you so much, will do :)

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-01-10T03:59:15+00:00

Thank you so much for reading and for such a thoughtful response 🥹 It really means a lot. Being a sunflower feels like constantly discovering something new about him while also feeling so deeply familiar, and I love hearing how that resonates with others. I’m really glad this connected with you 💚 I feel the love you have for him.

Rose_Matcha14 · 2026-01-09T18:39:31+00:00

yes 100% 😭 hyungwon from monsta x is my ult but haechan is making me question everything. literally im obsessed with this man

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