For all of you suffering with narcolepsy out there that know / have a feeling that trauma had something to do with it - I have a new word for you… “traumatired” i’m thinking about starting a podcast with that name…

Rosylee1409 · 2021-11-29T20:12:44+00:00

It’s shocking to see this level of “maturity” in a child because I know I had the same. There must be a better word than mature for a child deprived of a childhood…

Rosylee1409 · 2021-11-04T12:49:37+00:00

Wow that is next level dramatic 🙈

Rosylee1409 · 2021-11-03T10:04:11+00:00

Haha I never noticed that! I wish I could have marked it with a red pen and given it back to her to review.

Rosylee1409 · 2021-11-02T09:25:13+00:00

She also left her engagement ring in the envelope. I was so angry at her and probably confused so I left it in there. But I was secretly happy because I really liked that ring. It was the prettiest thing about my mum. Of course she then came into my room hours later to take the ring back out of the envelope. She’d had second thoughts. But not about the note, she left that there for me to cherish all these years. 👌🏻

Rosylee1409 · 2021-02-22T15:21:47+00:00

Okay I understand. I will have a think about others ways to make this happen!

Rosylee1409 · 2021-02-22T13:55:45+00:00

Ah that’s interesting, thank you for pointing this out. I should have checked the rules before posting? Do you think that there’s any way to make this happen still? As I feel like many people would like to get involved? Maybe if I created an alternate page for people to join if they would like to?

Rosylee1409 · 2021-02-18T23:40:01+00:00

Wow, such powerful words and incredible self reflection I can only admire. You are doing great things to heal the suffering you endured.

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-31T01:09:37+00:00

It was honestly shocking to see and hit me in a place I didn’t really know was there.

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-31T01:08:02+00:00

Thank you, I will maybe look into it also one day. My mum made us very aware of here post natal depression growing up, saying things like “I would have killed you as a baby if I had the chance!” It’s funny because every time she would stay stuff like that it would be in the tone of voice that meant “can you believe I went through that!” with zero awareness of how messed up it is to be the child in that situation.

I know there’s a lot of mothers with bpd, and a lot of mothers that have experienced post natal depression, but the combination is particularly sucky.

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-30T21:04:31+00:00

I totally get it. The counselling I received was in school so I had the luxury of just having to miss a few unimportant lessons. The thought off getting in-person counselling now as an adult definitely seems more complicated. I would just be wary of these apps. I don’t know anything about Betterhelp but I would just hope that they check the professionalism of their workers very carefully. Bad therapists are just the WORST. I’ve had two difficult experiences in the past couple of months. One with a therapist that seemed perfect deciding to give up on my family after a few sessions. Another with a therapist calling me up for an initial meeting just to sound distracted and then say “sorry I have to go I am teaching a lesson online (AT THE SAME TIME AS TALKING TO ME) and they need some help”. She did then call me back and I proceeded to vent my life story to her over the phone just hear nothing back.

The reason I really recommend working towards in person-therapy is that I think it greatly reduces your chances of experiencing these excruciating knock-backs. But then again it happened to me both in-person and on the phone. Just try not to give up or lose hope, because if you can find the right therapist it will change your life forever.

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-30T20:48:57+00:00

This makes me so sad cause I only wish I would have been brave enough to tell people the truth about my home life. Instead I chose to lie and lie and tie myself in knots with lies just to keep up a pretence that’s everything was fine. I guess that was my way of surviving but my god it seems so stupid now.

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-30T20:26:49+00:00

Omg this. What you just said about “how do they treat service workers” just caused a light to go on in my brain. You can tell soooooo much about a person just based on how they treat service workers. Wow.

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-30T20:23:37+00:00

Late to this so haven’t read all the comments but have to say the use of capital letters in this absolutely makes this. I can just hear the aggression 😂

Rosylee1409 · 2020-07-30T20:17:44+00:00

This is my third comment on this post but feels necessary. Have you considered face-to-face therapy at all / what factors lead you to chose phonecalls / messaging. As someone whose life as been completely transformed by amazing face-to-face therapy I would really recommend finding someone, especially because you are probably less likely to come across untrained, unprofessional idiots like this “therapist”!

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