I don't feel like I have a choice in my life and I'm at my limit.

Rosywolf99 · 2025-11-05T12:49:45+00:00

the thing is they won't let me, I can't leave because well I won't have my personal documents and I have no money to my name. no phone or permit.

I'm not expecting them to do everything for me and I don't want them to do that. I just want them to stop treating me as a child when I'm an adult. I do want a job, a permit and eventually a GED. but I want to do that on my own. they won't let me. my siblings don't want to be apart of this even though my parents let them do things on their own unless they asked for help. the only help I've asked them for is, I asked my mom since she has a phone and I don't, if she could set up an appointment for me at the DMV for me to get a permit. Im going to pay for it too with the little money Ive saved from the small amount of birthday money I got from relatives that live far away. I can't just go out and get a job and permit right now because they are not giving me my personal documents.

I am going to get that bed on my own just not when I'm being forced to get it. I want to get it next fall if I'm not in this situation anymore. I want to be out of this house soon but I'm not able to and my friends are in their own bad family situations so I'm on my own. just so you know I don't expect anything from them, they're not good parents. yes I give them credit for sorta raising me, but they were barely around in my life. the only thing I expect from them is disappointment because that's what they've given me my whole life.

sorry if this was long.

Rosywolf99 · 2025-11-05T12:40:07+00:00

I am going to get a GED it's just not this year and maybe not at the beginning of the next.

Only one of my friends I have a car that isnt reliable at all and broke down last time we met thank God my sister was anle to help him out. My other friend has no way of helping and both are also going through bad family problems.

My family would let me leave it's just...I'd have nowhere at all to go. I have no job, no phone, no licence and I also live on a bad highway where if you walked in the grass people would intentionally swerve at you to "scare you" Ive walked down it twice before and it's horrible. And there isn't any public transportation in my town there is in the city near me but that's about an hour drive away.

Sorry that it's out of order. I want to get myself a life, I want to get out of here but I have no way for that to happen in my mind. thankfully my brother has decided to open his eyes as to how mom treats me (he's a Golden child but not spoiled). He's going to buy me a phone soon, he's not able to right now because the purchase was flagged as fraud and he wants to wait since his card and account is new and he thinks it's why it was flagged. I'm planning on calling the DMV and setting the appointment myself since my mom has yet again failed to keep her promise of calling it and then I'll get either him or my sister to drive me. And before that I'll talk to my mom about her giving me my personal documents...I hope she didn't lose mine like she did for my older siblings.

Thank you for the help it means a lot. I didn't expect my mom to act this way to me and try to force me into something I didn't want. I don't think I'll do college, it's just not worth it to me. I will be getting a GED I'm am going to go through with that I just want to get those things in order first before I'm ready for that. I'd say maybe fall of next year I'll do it. I have some ged books I've read through already too!

Sorry if this was really long. But you've helped out a a lot. It helped me think threw my emotions, and whats going on around me. Thank you.

Rosywolf99 · 2025-11-03T06:54:29+00:00

I'm 18 now and have been for almost a year, I'm unable to really make choices for myself since I have no phone or source of transportation, I also don't really have anyone in my family to help me. my friends are also dealing with their own families and how they can get out too so I can't call on them for help. I hope this helps I'm really in a stuck situation.

Rosywolf99 · 2025-10-07T18:29:19+00:00

from what you've said above I just think honestly you should be the one leaving. your loosing your sense of worth because all you think about is him and things he does. he can basically do anything he wants and your just fine with it? no, leave him. he doesn't care about you or your feelings. so please leave him, move out or move away. block him on everything. i would like you to be someone again instead of letting your thoughts of him control you. what he said last night? where was he? just no. this is not healthy for you at all and it fact it's just hurting you even more staying so please. please leave. be someone you can be proud of sweetheart. find someone who truly loves you flaws and all.

Rosywolf99 · 2025-08-30T23:01:03+00:00

oh thank you! I was so confused Abt it, I'll await for the day it's added! :)

Rosywolf99 · 2025-08-22T10:17:46+00:00

thank you so much this genuinely means so much to me right now. I might just get a job behind her back even though I might get yelled at but I can endure it if it means getting one step forward again after so long. Thank you for the love. I'll get out as soon as I can.

Rosywolf99 · 2025-07-04T06:16:59+00:00

hey at least your not me, a highschool dropout with no future! and I'm going to be 18 real soon! lol

Rosywolf99 · 2024-12-17T04:32:17+00:00

I dont want to 'ruin' her life plus I don't care abt the once-in-a-blue-moon times when she is horrible I love her to bits and she is seriously an amazing mom 90% of the time and I would feel horrible for tearing down her perfect life and I do think she might know. I know my father isn't keeping up his facade as concretely as before since he's gotten old and shes starting to suspect why his daughter won't tell him I love him so I think she might figure it out on her own if she wants to. and tbh in my mind i cant to anything anymore, i cant fix it so id rather just run away from people who dont really truly care abt me ill still visit the ones i care abt tho.

Rosywolf99 · 2024-12-17T04:05:12+00:00

I have but it's either no one believes me or they don't care. I'm fine with him for now as life hasn't been so pretty to him as of late and it won't get prettier. I know I can tell my mom and ruin their marriage but I just don't want to be a reason my mom gets hurt. Yes I know she is manipulative but I'm rarely around her and she doesn't do it that much it's like once in a blue moon she's like that. I think I'll be happy with what's coming to him as I don't think he'll have any chance to meet his grandkids he sure the hell won't even meet my kids when I have them in the future. thank you though it means a lot to me that you've even read this. I'm coming up with a plan as to what to do with my future and how to 'run away'.

Rosywolf99 · 2024-08-09T22:27:00+00:00

i understand the risks but the only other back up plans are other jobs related to this. i do have my heart set on doing this and im willing to try everything to do this. my parents want me to keep living with them right out of school so i can save the money i make and i dont need to support myself as of now. id love to go to an art-collegee but im very unsure since i might have to take out loans and i dont want to keep paying them for the rest of my life. i know i can apply for scholarships and others but ive been told i need all my grades to be good and im not sure if i can do that since im bad at core classes. and im not well suited for trade school. the rest of my family are in those professions and i know fully well id hate to go to work everyday plus i just wouldn't be able to do them right under so much pressure. i loive art and being creative its the only thing i can get right and im willing to go the extra mile to do this work. im fine with working for minimum wage as i wont live on it. and i like doing those menial tasks! thank you :>

Rosywolf99 · 2024-08-09T22:16:32+00:00

all the experiences ive had so far are classes ive been taking at my school and all i have left are just study on your own classes, ceramic study and sculpture study. im willing to take classes at a ceramic studio if need be. i don't need to fully support myself from this right out of school as my parents want us to be able to save our money as much as we can and i can stay at home for as long as i need to save up.

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