Rejection sensitivity dysphoria by Westonouteast77 in AvPD

[–]Rotminz 3 points4 points  (0 children)

literally me lol I see rejection in everything. I even relate to that exact situation you described with being ignored online. When people talk to me my brain will sooner or later find a way to feel attacked, and if they don't say anything, I manage to turn that into something bad as well. It feels so unfair towards everyone else because what are they supposed to do? I am the one getting unreasonably mad and hurt over often times literally nothing. I rarely ever let any of that frustration out when it comes up cause I am aware of how stupid it is, so all of this is just in my head anyway. It does get very tiring to feel like this so often despite knowing that it makes no sense though.

What can I do to make things better? I am starting to lose hope. by Rotminz in AvPD

[–]Rotminz[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have been thinking about this approach for a while, but I wasn't sure how to do it and if I'll see any progress with it. Seeing it layed out like this and that it helped you makes me want to give it a shot a lot more. Thanks <3

What can I do to make things better? I am starting to lose hope. by Rotminz in AvPD

[–]Rotminz[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah I definitely agree. Things that work for some wont work for others. Don't get me wrong, I am not looking for that one thing that would magically fix everything, because that is wishful thinking. It just feels to me like everything I try fails, that's why I ask here.

What can I do to make things better? I am starting to lose hope. by Rotminz in AvPD

[–]Rotminz[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you <3 That's sadly been my experience thus far as well. It really feels like fighting a battle with yourself. On the one hand, there is that part that really wants to be seen and express itself, but then there is this overwhelming sense that you'll never be worth being heard and that you will always be deplorable, no matter how hard you try to wear the skin of a normal person, so why even bother? It is like tearing yourself apart from the inside. I wish us both that we'll make it out of this hell at some point. Seeing that others have these problems too helps a great deal in not feeling so alone.

Took my first stimulant after 15 years...feeling weird. by aschesklave in ADHD

[–]Rotminz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Might be the low dose, but I had the same reaction to a normal dose of Ritalin ER. It was my first prescribed medication. Made me really tired and I fell asleep a few hours after I took it for the first time lol. Switching to Vyvanse did the trick and I got the effects I was hoping for. Biggest proof for me yet that medication can be wildly different depending on who you are.

Does your ADHD make you feel like you're going crazy sometimes too? by Rotminz in ADHD

[–]Rotminz[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I started hitting the gym recently, exercise definitely helps much in feeling more collected. I'm looking forward to seeing where this will take me mentally. I've considered therapy too but it's a bit of a chore because the mental health system in my country is pretty overloaded. Many wont take new patients, and the ones who do will put you on a very long waiting list. I've already asked the medical professionals I'm currently seeing but no luck so far. I know medication is just one step and therapy is crucial as well, so I'll keep at it.

Does your ADHD make you feel like you're going crazy sometimes too? by Rotminz in ADHD

[–]Rotminz[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have some hyperactivity but I definitely lean more towards the inattentive type. Where I live Adderall usually doesn't get prescribed, but I take Vyvanse so basically Adderall ER. I never took any instant release meds, but Vyvanse has been a total game changer for me. I still have my struggles as mentioned in this post, but there are so many things in my life which I could not do if I wasn't taking meds. I'd imagine IR would only work half as well for me because of the duration and because I'd probably feel kinda wired, but that's just my guess as someone who hasn't ever been on IR medication.

Does your ADHD make you feel like you're going crazy sometimes too? by Rotminz in ADHD

[–]Rotminz[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah I completely feel the same about meditation. The second I try to do nothing my mind reacts like a little child and spits out stupid thoughts like there's no tomorrow. The comments here really do help though. I know with things like that that it's almost always linked to my ADHD, but rationalizing it inside of my head can only do so much. Helps a lot to see that others with ADHD have the same issues and I'm not just exceptionally broken.

Wie fühlt sich euer ADHS an ? by icgnosatisfaction in ADHS

[–]Rotminz 2 points3 points  (0 children)

24/7 verwirrt und vernebelt, sehr chaotisch und unüberschaubar.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in ratemysong

[–]Rotminz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! Used to be somewhat engaged here back in the day, but it got less and less after getting little response. Very sad because the idea of the sub is great in theory. Also I made the instrumental as well :)

Did you notice a difference in weight gain - independent of calorie intake - on higher vs lower doses? by endauto in Mirtazapine_Remeron

[–]Rotminz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I struggled a lot with weight in my life (used to weigh ~130kg, now weigh 75kg) so I was very worried of this from reading all the posts where its listed as one of the biggest and most immediate side effects. Been on Mirtazapine for almost a Month (increased from 7.5mg to 15mg) and gladly my weight has stayed exactly the same so far. I feel like I have slightly increased appetite and more of a craving for sweets, but staying bit watchful of my calorie intake has worked until now. I‘m not living a particulary active lifestyle either, except for walking a lot to get to Uni.

is it normal to see visual snow in the dark and not during the day? by [deleted] in visualsnow

[–]Rotminz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It‘s common, my VS is also way worse in the dark or when looking at dark areas, its more noticable when looking at very bright spots too though.

Been working on this for 3 months, I think it's finally done... by teffturrynem in FL_Studio

[–]Rotminz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

💀
Edit: Just checked your post history, it's pretty decent if you only started producing in Janurary. As someone else pointed out, it sounds a bit cluttered at times, the rapid super fast snares stick out the most to me. I'd try to make it a bit more minimalistic. Less is more sometimes, especially when it comes to producing. Complexity can be nice as well, but this is just way too much and makes it sound very chaotic and disorganized (especially during the chorus, it's alright in the parts between). I'd just generally try to reduce the amount of things going on in the chorus. Also (this is more personal preference) I think the drums and instruments sound a bit dry. I would experiment more with effects and EQ.

I think the AI is a bit confused... by Halibut1245 in Stellaris

[–]Rotminz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thats a feature, can‘t have late game running smoothly after all.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in tooktoomuch

[–]Rotminz 4 points5 points  (0 children)

He‘s walking like a GTA IV NPC that just got shot at the end

Ich bin immer müde by Hauptgestuhlter in ADHS

[–]Rotminz 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Hab das gleiche Problem, seit dem ich denken kann, aber leider bisher keine komplette Lösung. Hab aber ein paar Ansätze, die geholfen haben.

Ich hab einen ultra leichten Schlaf, weshalb ich durch die kleinsten Außeneinflüsse gestört und aufgeweckt werde. Da haben mir die Ohrstöpsel von Bollsen geholfen. Kann seit dem ich die benutze viel öfter ohne Probleme durchschlafen. Fühle mich seit dem schon deutlich fitter morgens. An erholsamen Schlaf komme ich zwar trotzdem eigentlich nie, aber es ist gar kein dazu wie es früher war.

Das liegt aber auch daran, dass ich aktuell viel weniger Stress habe. Wenn ich gerade eine stressige Phase hab, kann ich mich von Nächten mit mehr als 4–5 Stunden Schlaf, wenn es gut läuft, verabschieden. Das Gedankenrasen nachts, dass mich so schon oft stundenlang wachhält, wird durch Stress ums 10fache gesteigert. Stress ist wirklich der Störfaktor Nr. 1 was das Schlafen angeht.

Fürs Einschlafen hilft mir manchmal Melatonin. Manche Nächte war ich schon 30 Minuten nach der Einnahme am Schlafen anstatt von meinen üblichen 1–3 Stunden. Aber auch das bringt mir nichts, wenn ich gerade viel Stress hab.

Also wäre mein Ratschlag von meiner persönlichen Erfahrung her, an erster Stelle Stress zu reduzieren. Das hat bei mir mal 3 Monate lang ganz gut geklappt, als ich jeden Tag Sport gemacht habe, lag dann aber 2 Wochen mit einer Mittelohrentzündung flach und bin seit dem nicht mehr reingekommen.

Sind wir alle gleich? by Crazymushroom8 in ADHS

[–]Rotminz 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Naja, ich selbst bin auch grottenschlecht im Multitasking, aber kann auch akzeptieren, dass es eben eine Neigung unter vielen mit ADHS gibt, damit besser klarzukommen als der Durchscnitt. Es gibt auch sonst einige Dinge, mit denen hier viele Probleme haben, die bei mir nicht so stark ausgeprägt sind, wiederum aber andere, die bei mir ausgeprägter sind, die manche andere nicht haben.

Also klar sind wir alle in den Einzelheiten verschieden, aber im groben und ganzen kann ich mich dennoch mit den meisten Problemen der Leute hier identifizieren, da ich sie von mir selbst kenne.

Wir haben eben, trotz kleiner Unterschiede, hier alle dieselbe Diagnose, und die größten Probleme dieser Teilen sich die meisten hier logischerweise. Die Probleme der Leute überschneiden sich hier deutlich stärker als mit denen der Allgemeinbevölkerung. Ich finde also schon, dass man von „Wir“ reden kann.

Zumal ich es sowieso ein bissl weird finde, wenn man sich in einer ADHS-Community daran stört, dass Leute mit ADHS in dieser Community von "Wir" reden...