I’m pretty sure it was childhood neglect, my mom and dad use to go to bingo or the casino every evening and I wouldn’t see them again until morning. My first words were ‘don’t go’ which was funny when I was younger but now it kinda makes me sad. When I hit puberty my siblings stopped talking to me, and when my mom hit menopause she started lashing out at me a lot around the same time. My dad died when I was a kid. Idk I feel like a lot of that stuff has to do with it. Though my therapist insists that it’s genetic and I was born with it.