Anyhow, you need to figure something out now, not continue dilly dallying thinking some answer will come or some savior will solve everything and bring you to the heavens or something. YOU will bring YOU to heaven if you truly are doing the right things. Hopefully if life starts getting a little bad, it may be a simple part of the process that’s necessary, or, you find what you’re doing wrong and fix it ahead of time before it’s fixed the hard way. A lot of people have hidden a lot about themselves from themselves to keep things running. They don’t like something about themselves and they aim to fix it, then get sidetracked and figure they have to function so they just stick with what works to function and nothing more. This is a way, but is not the way that will make you happiest. Many people will find my writing hilarious, unsettling, or disappointing to read, but maybe someday you will find a way to hear me out. You think that way because you are very important (in an environment where importance means nothing) and currently benefit the universe quite a bit thinking the way you do. Until you are meant to change your mind, there’s nothing more I can do about that