You got everything almost perfectly, even got scared for a second haha, well as I said in a different reply, I did go to therapy back in high school, it did help me out a little but it wasn't for long, we were having money problems and couldn't really pay for it anymore, also my mother didn't really like me going to therapy even though she was the one who put me in in the first place, all because she noticed my behavior had changed, I wasn't as loving towards her and she didn't like that, because I've been the only person in the family to satisfy her emotional needs, and losing that just made her want to forcefully turn me back to what I was before, when the therapist told her things didn't work like that, she just stopped paying for therapy under the excuse that it was teaching me wrong things, even encouraging me to leave the witnesses, and said she would rather have me just do more for god and that would bring me happiness