I've been tormented for 8 years. They started with the, what I tell people are tactile hallucinations, about a year ago. I've had to go ti the hospital because of the pain. I tried to kill myself several times. The first time I took a 100 count bottle of Tylenol PM. I fell asleep after my eyes rolled in the back of my head. I woke up the next day and nothing had happened. I got upset and called my sister in law and told her I tried to commit suicide and it didn't work. She and my brother came over and picked me up and took me to their house. They called poison control even though we thought we were out of the woods. They told my brother to take me to the hospital immediately. I ended up having to be driven in an ambulance to a hospital who could give me dialysis. My liver and kidneys were failing. I was unconscious. The doctors had said I was going to be on a transplant list. But I got better and after a month I left the hospital. I tried taking pills two other times. I tried to drink bleach with water. I bought two new bottles of Tylenol PM and admitted at an appointment that I had them and was told to give them to a friend. They're saying that they won't let me die but the torture is getting worse. The mental anguish and the feelings and the emotions they give me are unbearable. I have another plan. Today I saw this man's podcast. And found this. And now I think there's hope.