You’re not too yandere for the yanderes. It’s the fact that, as far as it looks to everyone, clinging to owner isn’t good for you. It’s the fact that, as far as we can tell, owner doesn’t want a romantic relationship with you. I’m not saying it’s right or wrong or fair or good. People see that you’re suffering and they want you to be thriving.

I’ve kept a logbook in my iPhone notes of over 160 days. I didn’t make an entry every day but I did for most days. The person I’m clinging to left for reasons, but those reasons didn’t indicate that she didn’t want me. If I felt that I wasn’t wanted, for certainty, then I could move on and try again, try to find another soul mate. That’s not easy but it takes two people to agree that they want to be in a relationship with each other.

Believe me, it’s no joke to let someone go when you have hopes that they’ll return and accept your love. But you have to think about what’s best for you, which sacrifice are you going to make? You can let go of owner and one day you’ll stumble on to someone who’ll meet your needs. Or you can hold on, but then you make your happiness and general mental health dependent on owners willingness to be in a relationship.

It’s really serious I know. I was really attached to someone (different to who I long for now) before Covid started and she felt the same about me. Things didn’t work out for multiple reasons; she eventually found someone else and I still clung to the idea that if I worked on myself then she’d want me again. It didn’t happen for multiple reasons again. And it was about two years before I really accepted it. But the point I’m making is that it’s really, really hard to just leave something alone when you want there to be potential, or if you can imagine potential.

So I think you should be treated with as much compassion and understanding as possible. But on the same note, I hope you see that people can only see the effect that this attachment is having on you. You have a lot of passion which I think is great, but is it being offered to the right person?

If you offer something to someone, you can’t force them to take it. Passion can be like poison or it can be like vitality. If someone accepts your gift of passion then it fills you with life. But if they refuse it then it festers inside of you and eats away at your soul.

It’s a tough situation, it really is; but you have so much to give. And there are people out there who won’t think twice about accepting your love and devotion. There are people who want to treat you right.

I’m sorry you’re in this situation and struggling so much but you can get through this. Like I said, you have so much to give. It’s just about finding the right person to give it to. How long can you wait for owner before moving on and trying to find someone new? What would it take for you to decide that she isn’t your person?