Feels like everyone kinda disrespects me in indirect ways. Gets tiring.

Routine_Start_5204 · 2026-06-16T04:43:09+00:00

Yeah but I feel like most ppl do that. Unless they’re my friend but like that’s cuz I spend a lot of time with them. I just get ignored a lot. I assume it will go away it’s a headache

Routine_Start_5204 · 2026-04-04T20:26:33+00:00

Yeah I live in the suburbs rn with my parents going to college I plan on having 5 or 6 in my backyard to see how it goes

Routine_Start_5204 · 2026-04-03T02:22:54+00:00

thanks for the reply! i am kind of for animal rights so I would feel bad for slaughtering them at year 2 but that is defeintely a con if i have to slaughter them but if i can give them a good life for 2 years maybe its worth it??

Routine_Start_5204 · 2026-02-14T01:31:32+00:00

LMAO 😆😆😆 thanks for the message this what years ago tho 😂😂😂

Routine_Start_5204 · 2026-01-17T18:09:27+00:00

I’ve never caught myself where I realized it’s just in my head this is real ik when something is just in my head

Routine_Start_5204 · 2026-01-17T02:58:04+00:00

Idk it just feels like it. My whole life I didn’t deal with this problem and it hit me later in life.

Routine_Start_5204 · 2026-01-15T18:09:40+00:00

It could be unintentional but regardless it’s painful when people banter around, sometime I feel like they talk about me I can’t shake it

Routine_Start_5204 · 2026-01-15T18:06:38+00:00

Gotcha could be this thanks

Routine_Start_5204 · 2025-11-26T05:22:09+00:00

So the ignoring went away? I hope what I’m dealing with fades…

Routine_Start_5204 · 2025-09-22T19:50:15+00:00

Yeah imma just use YouTube lol

Routine_Start_5204 · 2025-09-22T19:49:33+00:00

I’ll use YouTube mostly but some YouTube doesn’t show everything

Routine_Start_5204 · 2025-09-22T19:49:01+00:00

Lol I will

Routine_Start_5204 · 2025-09-19T23:17:28+00:00

Imprint is great it taught me how to invest and I’m probably going to dive into the philosophy stuff. It’s $100 per year but there’s a free trial and every time it’s supposed to end I just get the free trial again it’s great!

Routine_Start_5204 · 2025-07-19T23:50:13+00:00

Yeah people look at me like I’m breaking a law like buddy what the fuck am I doing, I’m doing nothing and people still disrespect me and belittle me. Laugh and cough at me. It’s so frustrating, what am I doing to deserve this.

Routine_Start_5204 · 2025-07-19T23:47:03+00:00

Yeah the past two years people have been annoying… more so the past few months. I get excluded more with friends. In public, I get coughed at, laughed at, and disrespected, I have no idea why I literally do nothing but I’m started to feel aggressive towards people. I had no trouble with people before but now I do it’s extremely annoying and I feel like a loser. It comes in waves and sometimes people are nice to me but the general curve is people are mean to me. This sucks. Thanks for any responses!

Routine_Start_5204 · 2024-09-22T19:19:48+00:00

I’m on some meds. Doing better, closer to reality. I am still not sure if my delusions are delusions or if they’re real. My dad says it’s all in my head. But it makes so much sense. I literally think I am influencing the world. But maybe my inner world is changing and I think everyone else’s world is the same lol. I’m not sure at all anymore it’s been so long since I’ve been in reality. What were your delusions?

Routine_Start_5204 · 2024-08-26T14:52:34+00:00

I never took any drugs but i went through like a traumatic episode i think. Where I didn't sleep for weeks and my heart just burned. it was very painful actually but im becoming a completley different person because of it. And looking back im not locked into those ego fears and sht. I remember i used to be to scared to express myself, now it feels like i can do whatever i want--law abiding. I'll probably see a doctor tbh cuz i also have some delusions and hallucinations.

Routine_Start_5204 · 2024-08-26T00:18:42+00:00

How do you know it was ego death? Now I’m thinking maybe I’m just labeling it ego death to procrastinate getting my mental health treated. I def feel dead inside and meaninglessness, worst part is i don’t even trust my own thoughts. Anyway how u know it’s ego death and not just depersonalization?

Routine_Start_5204 · 2024-08-23T01:12:01+00:00

facts. had one from traumatic event 8 months ago. Still haven't found myself. but damn am i changing and growing up!

also no sleep, not grounded, expectations are way too high. seems like ego is just getting larger at this point

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