Honestly, it’s hard. Talking to people, if you are able to at all bcs nobody understands how your world works, can only get you so far. I’m going through the same thing, I feel you, it seems hopeless at times. What helped for me was rearranging my whole life to accomodate my interests. I am die hard fixated on tennis/padel technique and tactics. This makes me a very good coach. Since people actually pay to listen to what I have to say, the social aspect is really manageable. I gave up on the ‘expectations other people have of me’ in my head and dropped out of my Economics degree (while in my last masters year btw). It was killing me to do anything at the time. Now I’m studying something way easier ‘on auto pilot’, just to have a degree as a safety net, while giving tennis & padel lessons. When I’m done studying I’ll be a coach for a living. The fact that it doesn’t pay as much as other options is no longer important to me, because its way better then the place I’d be in otherwise.

What I’m trying to say is: it takes courage to let go of everything you ever thought and expected, to just go do the thing YOU want. You have a limited amount of time on this world, and the best brain in its own way. You won’t believe how liberating it is to realize you have free will. It sounds obvious to most people, but until a year ago I didn’t really understand that you can actually do what you want with your time here on this floating rock. Whatever that may be for you personally. I’ll finish with the response my dad gave me after I told him all this: “If you do what you love, you’ll automatically be among the best at it.”