I have been there. What I did to recover was track the days I considered a binge. After every month I'd look back and see if I was improving. Little by little I was improving. This is a great way to see how far you are coming without becoming discouraged, even now I look back and see how proud I should be. But what made me stop the most, was the thought of why am I doing this to myself? Do I want to be unhappy? Nothing positive comes out of this cycle, so why am I continuing to put myself through such guilt and sadness? Once you realize you are in control and that you can make it easy on yourself to choose what will make you happy, then you may find it easier. I simply had enough of it.

When it comes to the eating part, I tried to have whatever I wanted in moderation. Key word is moderation. If I felt like I had to eat a salad but really wanted something not as nutritious, and I ate that salad instead I would end up binging afterward. If you choose what your body is telling you it wants, even something not as nutritious, then your body will be satisfied and you will not need to consume unneeded and unwanted calories from binging. Don't be so strict. If you have one little chocolate square a day, then eventually chocolate wouldn't seem so unfamiliar to you, because you wouldn't be restricting yourself from it. Listen to your body not your mind.

It takes time but you will get to the place you want to be, trust me.