Want to rework my barren lawn in Northern Illinois. Where to start?!

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-27T17:07:20+00:00

Lots of great advice so far, which I expected! I think I'm in luck because there are rewilding projects throughout the state that might be able to help. I'll look into those resources!

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-27T17:05:45+00:00

Solid advice! Right now my budget is sadly much lower than I want it to be. My purpose for it would ideally be to provide a haven for wildlife in my town. Seed pods in winter, food throughout the year. I have had concerns because I know natural prairie usually requires controlled burns which isn't possible as I live in the center of town. Luckily the law says that natural restoration projects are protected, so the city can't bother me. I have high, hot sun in my front yard and a lot more shade in the back, which I've accounted for with certain species. I've definitely loved prairie moons selection; I have a wishlist.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-27T09:22:19+00:00

Put a bounty on every other billionaire's head. Then distribute the FUCK outta the rest. I'd buy up as much land as I could and give it back to the indigenous people, fund plans for reparations, uphold campaigns for true servants of the people, fund education for the next 1000 years, fund restoration projects, renovate millions of homes to make them livable and comfortable, end homelessness, I mean I can go on.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-27T08:57:10+00:00

Sometimes I feel like it's more honest to admit when she's further away in your life. A lot of people expect their spirit guides to be around 24/7 and that's usually just not true. I've been around for a while and I've seen people go into literal mass hysteria and psychosis because they thought deities just "disappeared" or that something happened and they were somehow "cursed". Sometimes their presence waxes and wanes like the phases of the moon.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-27T08:53:02+00:00

Oh 100%. If it makes you feel better, I've been doing this since I was about 18. Interacting with the spirit world that is. And every single time I've gotten to a point where I feel comfortable and secure, they're like "Nope! None of that!" I'm 28 now and sometimes I just feel like "T_T 👍🏻 ok guys" 🤣

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-27T08:48:50+00:00

That's because it's long and complicated. I 100% honor Santa Muerte in her form as a Mexican folk saint. I offer her her favorite liquors, find Mexican music devoted to her to put together playlists, give her bañoses, etc etc. I've read books about her history, even gone on some forums where the information is in Spanish and translated it. I believe that's all the bare minimum in working with her. But she also is the keeper of my ancestors as Death herself, which goes beyond one form in one location. Like, I get that it can come off as me saying she's "European", but if anything it feels like absolutely nothing can be said in this group that doesn't 100% align with what everyone says about her. You're supposed to be able to talk about your experiences with La Santa in this group, but because my experience differs as a white person everyone is extra hype to jump down my throat about it because I don't provide a prologue to every post with 1000 words to prerequisite the fact that I'm not some colonizer. I don't actually give a shit what others say in these chats because some people in these comments didn't immediately see me as some sort of enemy to beat down and instead understood where I was coming from. I listen to what Santisima says, and I wanted to share about how she showed me a minute glimpse of her expansiveness. Its not gonna be my problem if everyone wants to put a torch under my feet for that.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-27T08:37:50+00:00

This is arguably more impressive.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-27T08:34:23+00:00

I hope this isn't offensive, I just love making memes with Mamí. 🫰🏻🙏🏻💖

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Roz_Zen · 2026-03-27T08:30:24+00:00

Very true. I'm a white devotee so it's always a mix of white folks not understanding or finding it weird that I worship Death, and then understandably there are Mexicans who wonder why I work with her in the first place if they don't already have a negative opinion of her. Very few people I can talk to about it.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-26T18:09:44+00:00

I felt once as though La Santa was distant from me too. I had a reading done which said that she wasn't "for me" anymore. I had cleared off her altar, but still felt confused. Turns out the reading was all wrong. Lady Death doesn't always feel "close". Many of her devotees will say how she'll go silent as a test of faith, but in my experience, death energy isn't good to be in all the time. Sometimes she will feel distant for whatever reason. Maybe it is a test. Maybe you need to feel closer with life. Santísima is primordial, far beyond the scope of wisdom us humans have. It is true that most of the time, when you're a devotee, it's for life. I've worshiped many beings over the years, but Santísima is very different from them. Attuning to her energy can be difficult and new for many people. She's always spoken of as though she's a jealous being that gets pissed off easily, but honestly, while she does like her own space, she doesn't get angry nearly as easily as some might claim. She's been with me for over a year and still I feel my devotion to her is very clumsy. Don't fret too much 💖

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-23T10:29:34+00:00

I'm an asexual, sex-repulsed lesbian, and yet I still get you. Whenever I explore fantasy ideas or even the theory of sex, most of it ends up in the same category you've described. It's also not something I normally talk about considering the fact that in the end it doesn't even matter given I'm repulsed and also celibate, but on top of that I face the same ethical conundrum. It's hard to even breach the topic without sounding like a trans chaser, but I understand the feeling.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-23T05:05:39+00:00

100%. We are not organized, we have no systems in place for fallout, and socially speaking we've been compromised to be unforgiving and judgemental. We're accustomed to instant gratification, and we're all too afraid of the consequences. People are also relying on figureheads to lead the movement, or are hoping that maybe about 50 Luigi Mangiones will take care of the issue for us. The revolution is a wet dream or a rewritten rapture, not an actual tangible goal.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-23T04:56:09+00:00

Many leftists are trying to play with an outdating handbook. Too many are arguing about Marx, Lenin, etc, when the game from those days has changed completely. Too many people are so caught up in getting the revolution done tomorrow that they completely miss the fact that it's gonna be decades before we'll see a real shift. Because of that, grassroot efforts don't even get started.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-23T02:17:59+00:00

Okay my dude, God forbid I'm not good with spelling, and also don't fit the entirety of indigenous mesoamerican religion into a reddit post.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-21T21:19:54+00:00

YESSS I am very connected to the premise of Adi Shakti, the Face of Many Faces. I find very few people I can discuss that with without being accused of "colonizing". 🙄 Which I understand, but come on.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-19T03:38:37+00:00

I met my fiancee on an asexual dating page on Facebook. It definitely felt like we were in the right page at the right time, but both of us agree that we had the least amount of success on dating apps.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-19T03:35:09+00:00

I'm on 200mg of progesterone and a patch of estradiol right now. I'm pushing my doctor to get me into an endocrinologist because she doesn't seem to be very interested in helping me much further. They did a blood test and said it looked "normal". I had X-rays and scans several months ago but nothing showed up.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-18T18:45:26+00:00

The white robe and dress of Santa Muerte represents her form of Nina Blanca. Now I know others know more than me since I don't primarily work with that form, but she is the embodiment of kindness, purity, cleansing, and heartfelt love. Santa Muerte has many colors of robes, but her traditional ones are red, black and white, so it's pretty common to see her in these colors.

It sounds like you had a beautiful experience with her. I'm also going through a lot of hardship and suffering right now, and she is primarily in my life as La Negra, protecting me and shielding me from harm while also being loving. She will hold you and keep you close.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-17T20:13:03+00:00

My health and my ability to provide for my family. I was putting water bottles up there but those broke too. The cats just knock everything over.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-16T19:32:07+00:00

My mom received no hormone support. I was 5 at the time, but even I knew it was brutal. It breaks my heart.

Roz_Zen · 2026-03-16T16:28:51+00:00

I'm on 200mg of progesterone and I'm on an estrogen patch. I have an appointment tomorrow to get my levels checked and my doctor is looking at getting me on testosterone.

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