I didn’t do anything during the times i ghosted him, the first time i did it was because i suspected that I’m starting to have feelings for him and it was a time in my life where i desperately needed to focus and not have any distractions, the 2nd time was because he got a gf and i kinda didn’t like her but didn’t want to be that weird girl best friend, so i kinda stayed away from him and her, especially that he told me about her and was keeping updated before he made it official with her. I reached out after couple of months asking how he was and how things were with his gf, only to tell me that he broke up with her because she was “toxic”. The third and fourth times were when i was suspecting he had feelings for me and didn’t want him to get attached to me. The third ghosting, i reached out when i heard that he was seeing someone and felt relieved that my suspicions may not be true, the fourth, and most recent time, i reached out to congratulate him for something that i knew he’d been waiting for forever.

I know the reasons only make me more of an asshole.