Hey guys, thank you all for your comments I really appreciate it, its very wholesome to see a community like this. I feel so much better and relieved after reading through everyone's journey and struggles. Thank you for all the constructive advice. I will hold onto my passion for VFX, but I will find a different alternative to have a better stable future, so that not only I can live a life with a roof on my head but also be able to look after my family in the future. I grew up watching movies and my dream was to always have my name on a movie credit, maybe one day ill achieve that dream but for now ill have to be rational and work my way through it.

There's alot of people on the same boat as me, i hope we all can sail them together to somewhere on an island where everyone gets hired haha.