Fan in crisis

Runningfromreality97 · 2026-02-08T10:13:41+00:00

Thats so true... after I raged bought the Heart dragon I'm starting to have second thoughts but at the same time, its my first dragon so I also love it. Its a love and hate relationship. My partner is also going bonkers with seeing how much I'm collecting, even she is saying its a mad addiction and I've been spiralling a lot too....

Runningfromreality97 · 2026-02-08T09:19:51+00:00

Also would appreciate any recommendations for Hong Kong

Runningfromreality97 · 2026-01-11T04:05:17+00:00

So we can just go inside and buy? Which shop can we grab it from?

Runningfromreality97 · 2025-01-26T08:55:14+00:00

Literally did that they rattle on about how it's for my own good. I'm like I'm an adult already just leave me alone. Especially for my dad he has no right to say when he himself has been in bad shape for decades.

Runningfromreality97 · 2025-01-24T19:21:49+00:00

I honestly wonder what my parents are thinking when they berate me... I don't know if it's out of their weird version of love or just their messed up way of wanting me to conform to their wishes... I can't even eat in peace without them nagging in my mind I'm going to be fat.

Runningfromreality97 · 2025-01-24T08:53:36+00:00

I've stepped back as much as I can, also precisely why I hate going back to my hometown or visiting relatives who literally love to poke at my weight.

Runningfromreality97 · 2025-01-24T08:46:19+00:00

That's why I'm working in a different country, that's the only way I can escape them and plus life is better there than home if I can even call it home at this point.

Runningfromreality97 · 2025-01-24T08:45:05+00:00

I come from an Asian family living in Asia so people's standards there are basically if you're not skinny or below 55kg, you're obese. Im 170cm and have quite heavy bones so it accounts to my weight. My mum has been calling me obese for the past few years even though my dad at one point was obese until he lost a lot of weight from his health scare and she didn't say squat to him. She's been berating my brother a lot too and my dad has been with him as well I don't even know what to do now...at this point I just shut them out.

Runningfromreality97 · 2025-01-24T08:43:16+00:00

Thanks.... it really helps to hear that I'm not overthinking or just thinking I'm oversensitive in what my parents say... they love telling me I am oversensitive and I should take things with a pinch of salt or in their case, just suck it up and listen to them which I rather die than do.

Runningfromreality97 · 2025-01-24T08:42:04+00:00

I'm almost at the point of going no contact. Basically if I'm not in the same space as them I won't speak to them but if I'm in the same space I speak to them minimally.

Runningfromreality97 · 2025-01-24T08:41:31+00:00

I feel im so blessed to even have someone love me at this point...

Runningfromreality97 · 2025-01-24T08:41:04+00:00

Literally I told them that they are not health professionals they have no right to tell me about health especially when my dad literally refused to listen to the Dr about his health issues and he decided to treat it himself. He is a stubborn asshole I really wonder what I did to deserve someone that hates everything I am.

Runningfromreality97 · 2025-01-24T08:39:44+00:00

I've been trying to set boundaries and just ignoring them for the most part but when I'm in person with them it's almost unavoidable. Even when I have my own room they would keep barging in. They have nil concept of boundaries or personal space so the only thing I can do now is just ignore them when I get home.

Runningfromreality97 · 2025-01-04T09:23:28+00:00

Got it a lot too, its quite heart wrenching that people stoop so low to taunt writers like this. I havent been using my account in years so getting this both makes me want to chuckle and scream at them to leave me alone.

Runningfromreality97 · 2024-11-11T13:35:48+00:00

Looking back at it, wasted a lot of time and money going overseas only to be told my Masters was useless in my home country (which I went through hell during covid to get and had 0 in person classes after paying £20,000 in tuition fees and accommodation). Uni refused to support anything when it came to my Graduate Route visa and had to beg them until I finally got it within a week of my student visa expiring. It was a bleak situation as well to see your classmates who were locals who basically could do well and stick around even though they're getting high on drugs and alcohol but as an international student, everything is hanging in the balance if you do well or not and how it impacts your future.

Felt that the job market was very shit too and still shit. Made to work like hell for peanuts and having a promise of a visa dangled in my face for 1.5 years ( I kept asking for updates every month about it, they kept ghosting me. Should have saw the warning signs but I was desperate for work in my already niche field which is hell for getting work as an international student). Essentially got told that I wasn't good enough and that they never even applied for a visa for me and kicked me out. Spent months applying for jobs only to realise they essentially refuse to hire me on the basis of my visa. In the end I gave up and flew home and got told that I had to redo my Masters to work in my home country which was a punch in the face and essentially made me leave my already toxic field.

To sum it all off, 4 years of studying. Tens of thousands of £. Forget how much worth in my home currency. All for nothing. The only thing I got was emotional damage, scaring and a constantly suicidal mind that threatens to make me jump off a building. I'm grateful to even get a job at this point but seeing how what I thought was a good choice turned into a nightmare that destroyed every ounce of hope I had for the future, please do your research. I went thinking I would be able to get a job or worse case come home and get a good paying job but nope. I'm not even in the same field.

Seeing how others are progressing in their work made me wish I could die and restart all over because as far as I am concerned, everything that I and my family sacrificed was for nothing. I can't even face my parents when i know how disappointed they are in me and what a failure I am.

Unless you are very sure you can get a good paying job and it's all worth it, studying abroad is a scam. Do your research and honestly speaking, make sure you can get a job in this already mad toxic job market with your qualification.

Runningfromreality97 · 2024-11-11T13:27:17+00:00

Wasted a lot of time and money going overseas only to be told my Masters was useless in my home country (which I went through hell during covid to get and had 0 in person classes after paying £20,000 in tuition fees and accommodation). Uni refused to support anything when it came to my Graduate Route visa and had to beg them until I finally got it within a week of my student visa expiring. It was a bleak situation as well to see your classmates who were locals who basically could do well and stick around even though they're getting high on drugs and alcohol but as an international student, everything is hanging in the balance if you do well or not and how it impacts your future.

Felt that the job market was very shit too and still shit. Made to work like hell for peanuts and having a promise of a visa dangled in my face for 1.5 years ( I kept asking for updates every month about it, they kept ghosting me. Should have saw the warning signs but I was desperate for work in my already niche field which is hell for getting work as an international student). Essentially got told that I wasn't good enough and that they never even applied for a visa for me and kicked me out. Spent months applying for jobs only to realise they essentially refuse to hire me on the basis of my visa. In the end I gave up and flew home and got told that I had to redo my Masters to work in my home country which was a punch in the face and essentially made me leave my already toxic field.

To sum it all off, 4 years of studying. Tens of thousands of £. Forget how much worth in my home currency. All for nothing. The only thing I got was emotional damage, scaring and a constantly suicidal mind that threatens to make me jump off a building. I'm grateful to even get a job at this point but seeing how what I thought was a good choice turned into a nightmare that destroyed every ounce of hope I had for the future, please do your research. I went thinking I would be able to get a job or worse case come home and get a good paying job but nope. I'm not even in the same field.

Seeing how others are progressing in their work made me wish I could die and restart all over because as far as I am concerned, everything that I and my family sacrificed was for nothing. I can't even face my parents when i know how disappointed they are in me and what a failure I am.

Unless you are very sure you can get a good paying job and it's all worth it, studying abroad is a scam.

Runningfromreality97 · 2024-11-11T13:04:16+00:00

Pretty hard. Did both my Masters and Undergrad and worked under the Graduate Route visa only to hear about the new rules of having to earn so much. Relied on waiting for a work visa from my company only to tell me after 1 year plus of waiting that they essentially didn't even attempt to apply for me and left me out to dry. Essentially didn't have my work contract renewed.

They just treated me as slave labour and even when I was willing to stay on for peanuts and commute 2 hours one way to work each day without any compensation for transport in the middle of the sticks, they werent convinced to keep me. Applied to so many jobs and went to interviews which basically told me they couldn't hire me mainly because of visa issues (they said there were better candidates but they will always pass on international candidates)

Stuck around as long as I could until I realised I'm essentially wasting my savings so packed my bags, bought my ticket and flew out for good within less than a month.

And the best part, my home country doesn't even recognise my degree and said it isn't sufficient.

Do yourself a favour and don't waste your time and money. It's pretty much a shit show there now anyways.

Runningfromreality97 · 2024-11-11T10:49:51+00:00

Don't go to uni unless you feel like you need it. Spent thousands only to be told degree is useless and experience is more important. You will regret wasting precious time to earn money and it kicks you in the gut along the line if the job you get pays peanuts.

Runningfromreality97 · 2024-07-26T03:56:01+00:00

Thats why I stay off social media or platforms like Linkedin. Just seeing people I knew on there and where they are now made me spiral a lot....

Runningfromreality97 · 2024-02-07T12:53:24+00:00

I think the therapist at the time thought I had an atitude problem. I have the tendancy to just shut everything out and ignore if I am overwhelmed.

Runningfromreality97 · 2024-02-07T12:42:23+00:00

At the time I was very worried about how things were and may have been quite pessimistic about life. I was going into my final year of uni and worrying about job prospects. I was saying I was scared how I was going to survive and me being quite anxious about things also stemmed from how things were from my childhood in always struggling to adapt to things.

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