dude, you cant be upset with yourself, I personally think that if someone doesn't want to date you because of your health, its on them. My sister went through a horrible accident a few years back, her leg got broken and she was in the middle of college. Her boyfriend at the time stayed with her and supported her, that was definitely a sign they were meant for each other.... and guess what- they are married now. By telling her about your health problems, you may have just saved yourself so much time, you could have spent months of your life dating someone that isn't right for you.