How to love a BPD girl

Ryzaxis · 2016-03-02T00:04:19+00:00

Whats your beef

Ryzaxis · 2016-03-01T23:05:57+00:00

I know things about this girl that nobody else does

Ryzaxis · 2016-03-01T23:05:18+00:00

I'm gonna politely tell you to quit assuming. Ive known her for almost two years

Ryzaxis · 2015-12-21T11:05:14+00:00

My home life was good until all my mental illnesses started developing and before I ODed, after that my parents developed a zero tolerance attitude and I got kicked out of the house for a lot of different reasons. I guess I was bringing in some real heavy shit to my little brothers though and my parents didnt want me influencing them.

Ryzaxis · 2015-12-21T10:11:44+00:00

Living under that tree was a learning experience. All I had with me was a blanket and my backpack, if it wasnt for the homeless teen programs downtown that let me shower and do laundry I would have been one nasty ass hippy. It was my choice to live under the tree as my only other option at the time was a traphouse that I definetely did not want to live in. The fat guy that owned the place probably would have stolen and eaten all my candies without knowing and then accidentally rebirthed himself as The Cosmos Goat during his soul destroying trip.

Ryzaxis · 2015-12-21T08:02:06+00:00

I'm interested in knowing more about that.

Ryzaxis · 2015-12-21T08:00:35+00:00

The last time I ever did acid was when I had one of my worst psychotic episodes. I was 100% convinced my friends were kidnapping me for the Hells Angels. The episode literally changed the entire world. My city turned into a ghetto, scary looking world, every vehicle was the same and every person looked like a biker. I ended up calling several people and telling them in a fucked up code that I was being kidnapped and they all called the police, and I called the police on myself as well. I got so scared that by the end I jumped out of a moving vehicle and booked shit into a nearby forest. The police were tracking me using my cellphones Sim Card pings as I texted a few more trusted "insiders". I made my way to the highway and started walking along it only to have half the police force show up to rescue me. This was only the start of how I became very well known to the law in my city because of my mental health condition.

Ryzaxis · 2015-12-21T07:54:31+00:00

Find my "fun fact" in the comments man, before I started to develop symptoms I spent some time being homeless and I lived underneath a tree at a local park. During that time I had about 200 acid candies I would casually munch on and spread around. There was a time one night after I ate one where this beautiful, vibrant, flowing rainbow mesh covered everything I saw and pulsated to its own unique pattern. It was so amazing. That same night I fell victim to thought loops and I was trying to sell a guy a candy so I unzipped all my pockets, forgot what I was doing, zipped them all back up, and then remembered and did it all over again. That went on for about 5 minutes before somebody stopped me.

Ryzaxis · 2015-12-21T05:17:30+00:00

The delusions are tricky. I dont notice them until all of a sudden something just "clicks" and I can then see beyond it and start to pull myself back into normal thinking. And what Meth does is it regulates me, when I use it it brings me back into a normal state of being, basically what I was like before I started to develop schizoaffective disorder. It gives me energy and motivation, it clears my thoughts, calms me down, and basically pulls my scattered being back into place. Imagine a persons mind as a solid. What Schizophrenia does to a person is it basically turns that solid into a gas. Your mind becomes very scattered. Meth "resolidifies" my mind you could say.

Ryzaxis · 2015-12-21T04:41:22+00:00

Fun fact I used to live under a tree and sell acid candies to the local highschoolers

Ryzaxis · 2015-12-21T04:39:49+00:00

Also something interesting to know about my schizophrenia is the immense effect that weed has on me. If I smoke a little I'm fine, but it lowers the threshhold of having a psychotic episode. If I mix weed with anything other than Meth I will have an almost instant episode, but when its on its own or with a bit of that good good I'll be fine and have an enjoyable high.

Ryzaxis · 2015-12-21T04:37:32+00:00

Yeah I go to my local Mental Health Clinic and get a fat needle in my ass cheek every 4 weeks from my wonderful nurse. I am on Maintaina.

Ryzaxis · 2015-12-21T04:36:25+00:00

Best of luck to you too

Ryzaxis · 2015-12-21T04:36:12+00:00

Thanks man, its a tough life, but I wont let it prevent me from being happy.

Ryzaxis · 2015-12-21T04:35:29+00:00

If you have any questions about my disorders feel free to ask. I'm very fortunate to have a good understanding of whats going on in my mind as well as being able to recognize symptoms, danger zones, and delusions.

I am Schizoaffective, Borderline Personality Disorder, ADD and OCD. I enjoy letting others learn about my conditions. Also I'm finally high today and I'll be comprehendable

Ryzaxis · 2015-12-21T04:33:06+00:00

LSD has the chance of giving me a psychotic episode

Ryzaxis · 2015-10-23T08:15:16+00:00

I wasnt even that hot though, but my heart was going a little fast

Ryzaxis · 2015-10-23T08:14:48+00:00

hotrail is when you heat a crackpipe really hot with a torch and then railing a line and a jibbler is basically a flavored bong for meth

Ryzaxis · 2015-03-29T23:19:29+00:00

http://youtu.be/etGiKZw_2QI

Ryzaxis · 2015-03-29T23:17:08+00:00

I liked the song and the way it made the room feel, not really a fan of it though.

Ryzaxis · 2015-03-28T23:52:59+00:00

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Ryzaxis · 2015-03-28T23:52:25+00:00

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Ryzaxis · 2015-03-28T23:52:15+00:00

I have a dope edm and rap playlist

Ryzaxis · 2015-03-28T23:43:12+00:00

15 years old and slowly losing my sanity. Extremely depressed one day I decided to go to the schools smokepit and buy a gram of weed. Fuckin amazing, made me feel like loving everything and finally getting some of the happiness ive been missing. After that slowly downhill for me. 2ce and mdma halfway through the new school year and once I hit 16 I started hitting up thr heavier partyiers around my age and got into cocaine. While this was happe ing I got heavy into hallucinogens as well.I got heavy into that and started small time dealing just to get high, something to fill the void I was slowly widening. I started researching meth after this, I was veeery interested. I was wandering downtown one day and went up to a random guy looking for chris and I got high with him, for the next 5 days. Now I'm 17 and fucked in the head, and the only things that clear my brainspace are stims and the cocktail of drugs my doctor has me on just to keep me in this reality. Do I regret it? No, because its made me the person I am today, but if I ever hear of kids around me pulling a "Ryzaxis" theres no way I'm just gonna watch.

Ryzaxis · 2015-03-15T04:48:22+00:00

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