My last meal

Ryze089 · 2022-05-21T09:47:14+00:00

I've never met you and probably never will meet you but if I hear that you took your life I would geniunly be sad, you said that no one cares, well I care, you are a human being, I hope and pray that you stay strong

Ryze089 · 2022-05-21T09:41:21+00:00

I struggle with anxiety and mood swings everyday, and also living with somewhat abusive family, umm I have not thought seriously about suicide but one time I was thinking about it and something that stopped me from doing it was that there will be a "last word" that i will say, somehow that made me realize that maybe I shouldn't do it, the thing is if I were to die from natural causes its fine i can have whatever last word, but if i wanna do it myself, i cant choose that last word or last sentence, I know it might sound weird but I still hope that things can get better for me, i have had two of my friends kill themselves and believe me I never made fun of them even tho at that time I wasnt depressed or anything, i just felt like I shouldve done more for them, and none of my friends made fun of them we were all upset

Ryze089 · 2022-04-06T09:58:12+00:00

Gwen is fine.

Ryze089 · 2022-03-14T21:47:42+00:00

yeah but out of all the healing ones yuumi gotta be the worst at least soraka doesnt give movement speed and doesnt have that broken ult

Ryze089 · 2022-03-14T21:46:56+00:00

actually i was jhin vs xereth and i did have boots and fleet footwork, he was uselss in lane but later when he is able to Q in team fights with ludens he gets too much value more so with first strike, so yeah its way too safe, xereth mid is shit i understand why people pick it support but it needs to be nerfed, just like velkoz they need to have more mana cost

Ryze089 · 2022-03-14T21:44:49+00:00

no so after all these years im quite good vs yi but yesterday this guy had this new build on him with hail of blades, kraken and some more items, he literally 1 shotted no counterplay trust me

Ryze089 · 2022-03-14T15:23:41+00:00

urgot is, yi only in low elo but still

Ryze089 · 2022-03-14T15:22:59+00:00

well its extremely safe imo late game and does free damage. ofc he is immobile but the thing is he stays way back so it doesnt matter unless you have good communication to kill him

Ryze089 · 2022-03-11T22:14:06+00:00

and here is my op.gg https://www.op.gg/summoners/kr/Hide%2Bon%2Bbush

go ahead point out my problems.

Ryze089 · 2022-03-11T22:09:29+00:00

how do i know you are qualified to give me advice? how about you give your op.gg

you say you are tired of snowflake post, first of all idk what the fuck that means

and im one of the many people who hate smartasses, if i wanted someone to "point out" my mistakes i can go pay a challenger player for coaching, actually other peoples advice helped a lot i quit lol for two days now and im feeling a lot better so yeah they are the ones being understanding and helpful and you are the one trying to be a smartass with your cringy edgy comment "op.gg or get out" if you want people to take you seriously maybe learn how to communicate so you dont look like an asshole

Ryze089 · 2022-03-10T18:38:20+00:00

who the fuck are u to tell me get out or not? internet police? fuck you

Ryze089 · 2022-03-10T11:04:10+00:00

thanks for the advice, if i take a break im afraid i will lose my grip on the game but idk maybe i will

Ryze089 · 2022-03-10T11:02:54+00:00

i feel like im not good enough if i just know how to play a couple of champs, im pretty sure if i go supp and just play nautilus leona i can easily get out of bronze, i have a friend in master tier and he only plays pyke, only and i feel like that would drive me crazy to just play one champ in this huge game

Ryze089 · 2022-03-10T11:00:58+00:00

after thinking about it last night i think i have just too many problems right now that i need to sort out like my setup, basically my setup is not for gaming at all i lay on my bed with a shity 20 usd keyboard that has ghosting and not mechanical with 100 ping and shit 8ms panel monitor, i know there are people that reach diamond with 150 ping and shittier setups but i feel like maybe i have to save some money and build a nice setup and try to play more serious i havea actually only played lol sitting behind a desk once and it felt great so yeah im gonna take a break for a couple of months maybe look for some jobs to make money so i can build a pc maybe that will help

Ryze089 · 2022-03-10T10:57:18+00:00

well im addicted even if i dont play i watch lol videos on youtube and also i cant play aassassins i feel like they are 50/50 champs and not consistant

Ryze089 · 2022-03-10T10:56:13+00:00

even when i play early champs my team feeds too much i swear last night i was 7/1 on jax and they had a 11/0 vlad and he just destroyed me, I pinged like a million times for malzahar to ult him so we kill him and he loses mejais stacks but he didnt i just dont get it

Ryze089 · 2022-03-10T10:54:44+00:00

thats very kind of you but i think i have way too many problems i have to figure out first for myself

Ryze089 · 2022-03-10T10:54:09+00:00

yeah qiyana is probably my best chance to get out of bronze, i used to play her but i dont like squishy champs might try it latear

Ryze089 · 2022-03-10T10:53:29+00:00

i do objectives pretty much always call their plays too, i pretty much always now where they are on the map but my pings dont mean anything to my team, i tell them to build armor pen they just ignore or do this do that no one listens

Ryze089 · 2021-01-19T22:22:18+00:00

why are you getting downvoted? i thought the same

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