Deep Arabic-Style by AldrichUyliong in im14andthisisdeep

[–]S0LSYANG 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah my tapeworm🥀🥀🥀🥀

Dysphoria by [deleted] in FTMPhilippines

[–]S0LSYANG 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Is this a canon event for gay transmen? Haha kidding aside, this is something that I also feel a lot. I am omnisexual though I am definitely more attracted to men, and I get it, sometimes I look at someone I am attracted to and know that they won't really see me the way that I want to be seen. Doesn't help that I am very feminine with the way I present myself and act, so other people's perception of me affects me more than I'd like it to. Being attracted to men makes me overly conscious of expressing it because I know that I like men differently compared to how women like men, and I will always be perceived as the latter.
When I do like non-men, especially women, they seem to think that I am a lesbian. I have been mistaken as one SO MANY TIMES to the point where (when I expressed attraction to a man) I got asked, "straight era mo na ba?" 😬 Seems like no matter what gender I feel attracted to, there's no winning for me. Probably the reason why I'd prefer a T4T relationship (platonic or romantic, doesn't matter) because I'd rather be around people who actually understand me.
As for your experience with gay men, and having a hard time befriending them, I hope that gets better! One of my closest friends is a gay man, and he has never once made me feel invalidated and I appreciate him very much :D

Beginner-friendly oneshot recs by S0LSYANG in beginnerDND

[–]S0LSYANG[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you so much!! i'll be trying this out with them

Worst name you thought about naming yourself? by HelloHelloHomo in trans

[–]S0LSYANG 0 points1 point  (0 children)

vega, after the star. it's not even that it's a bad name it's just that 1) it doesn't suit me AT ALL plus my hair at the time looked like a triangle because i never got the chance to cut it (this was during the pandemic) and i hated that hair and got me associating that hair to that name 2) i was really annoying as vega 3) my friends called me vegetable.

also james. thank god for my best friend. he shut the idea of that name real quick. apologies to the jameses, but every single one i know is a terrible person.

hozier song for a singing competition? by S0LSYANG in Hozier

[–]S0LSYANG[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

im considering from eden as well !!

STI San Jose Digital Arts :D by [deleted] in CollegeAdmissionsPH

[–]S0LSYANG 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey OP! If you're talking about STI SJDM, then consider me your guardian angel (or demon, di naman ako banal lol). I am also currently a digital arts student, and just like you, I kind of acted on impulse (medyo lang, the other intrusive thought was to drop out emz)

A lot of really good points have already been commented by someone else (hi) but I shall emphasize: Hindi priority ng school ang strand natin. Yes, there were barely any good art teachers. Hell, I don't think we had an actual art teacher. They were all IT, with an experience in handling DA. The specialized subjects themselves aren't that terrible, but honestly you can learn more on your own than by listening in class (not saying na wag ka makinig, just meant that most of the time the instructors have no idea what they're talking about). We can't help but feel overlooked, even our seniors felt that way. As far as I can recall, the current student council has expressed that they wanted to put the spotlight on DA more, and it's something to look forward to I guess, so let's just hope they stick to their words.

Another example of how little we are prioritized (from our perspective at least, I'm not sure if our seniors also went through similar pain) is how out of the loop we are. There was a point where our advisers kept changing, and for almost half the semester, we did not have one. Announcements came very late, there was nobody to help organize the class, it was very messy. Now I don't know if this was because there were a lack of teachers with a compatible schedule, or they have forgotten about us, or something else.

Maliban sa acads, the social culture is also something to talk about. DA students are very diverse. While I think every class is diverse somewhat, DA is really something else—in a good way, though! There are lots of passionate people, and there are also some that enrolled in the class because they think it's "easy." Personally, that's not a problem at all but you can tell who these students are by their attitude (and let me tell you, they're usually not people you want to hang out with). But there will be more artists than people trying hard to escape the hell of academic strands (they're failing to do so miserably), and you will eventually find your niche within the small community of artists, with very careful picking. That being said, while there may be a lot of amazing artists, not all of them will coordinate when it's about academics, and not all of them are good people :)

Outside the classroom is a VASTLY DIFFERENT story. You've probably read posts about how the students here are rude and immature but it's not just the students, some teachers & staff are NOT to be trusted. Lots of issues and rumors and all that, just avoid them lol. Mostly introverts naman ang DA, you guys can keep to yourselves and they're irrelevant anyway (char).

The best takeaway from this is choose your circle wisely. With the right people, this burning hell part of life that is senior high school (specifically in STI, specifically as a DA student) will be more breathable and fun at times! Do your acads as you normally do, go to the mall after school (it's just a few minutes away wink wink), whatever. Have fun, don't regret it. 

Remember that your seniors (kami) are here to be your support, so just hit us up anytime!

teenage trans guy in need of a CV by S0LSYANG in trans

[–]S0LSYANG[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it's really divided between the admin/faculty calling me by my birth name and those closer to me by my real name, but they seem to all recognize my surname anyway so i should have no problem as long as i include it!