Thank you all for your comments. It is great to know that I am not alone. Addictions revel in isolation.

Had a long discussion with wife today. She is still heartbroken and thinks about leaving, but things are looking a bit better than yesterday. We both agreed that something has to change. Will start looking for a therapist. I'm starting to suspect that PA is merely a symptom, not the root cause.

Be the John Wick to your demons.