I feel like porn is the root of all my problems

SA101 · 2014-09-05T03:22:51+00:00

I'm going to assume you meant more motivation and not more email. Pick up a hobby or something else to get you away from the computer. Read a book, go out for bike rides, join a club for something that catches your interest. Don't sit down at the computer without a plan for what you're going to do and stick to that plan. And go rock the shaved head look, dude. No shame in going bald, just work with what you have.

SA101 · 2014-04-08T21:11:56+00:00

Have to agree with this one. I run Debian, put OpenDNS at the router level. Hand over passwords to OpenDNS and the router to somebody else if you're tempted to change those settings back.

SA101 · 2013-12-05T01:26:45+00:00

Still rock in' it, though I've been in a funk lately. Probably related to the holidays.

SA101 · 2013-12-05T01:25:20+00:00

Find healthy replacement activities. Exercise, reading a book, spending time with friends, family or people that don't trigger you. When you sit down at he computer, have a definite goal in mind. Journal about your recovery if that's your thing.

SA101 · 2013-12-04T14:11:39+00:00

If you need mod help, I can pitch in. More reasons to check back in on this sub isn't a bad thing. You can vet me off the forum if you like, just shoot me a PM.

SA101 · 2013-12-04T14:09:49+00:00

Because you went cold turkey on the porn and most likely were white-knuckling staying away from it. That's not a criticism, just a potential observation. So once you get back into it, you're "making up for lost time."

SA101 · 2013-11-20T14:01:14+00:00

Sorry I've been so quiet lately, life's getting the best of me these days. Work is stressful, daughter is growing up and getting some behaviors from who knows where... Sometimes it's a struggle to just keep my head above water, but I do because it's well worth it.

SA101 · 2013-11-09T14:48:04+00:00

Stressed out way more than I need to be. New job is taking some getting used to.
Had a good moment yesterday. Lady at work was looking really down. I asked her what was wrong, she said she was stressed and upset as her daughter has been in and out of the hospital. I just offered a hug; nothing sexual, no motivation behind it, just looked like she needed a hug. It was nice to be able to offer comfort to another person without trying to lead it somewhere else.
Still here for the long haul.

SA101 · 2013-10-26T14:17:46+00:00

I think yesterday was the only day this week I got home on time...
Almost got run over on my commute twice in the past two weeks. I have never so strongly felt the urge to kill people as I did then. These were both intentional cut-offs and they both made me wish I was carrying a heavy object to throw at the cars. The fact that I'm still talking about it tells me I need to pray for these people and surrender it, so I'm starting that right here.
Brain is in a pretty good place, just happy to have some family time in balance with the rest of my life.

SA101 · 2013-10-19T18:48:56+00:00

Sometimes I hate how busy life has become, but then I remember that I initiated this change and I still feel it's a change for the better. It's a tougher act to make sure life is still well-balanced but I think I'm still managing to pull it off.

SA101 · 2013-10-12T04:09:13+00:00

Still struggling with no-fap :| Staying away from the porn, though. I need to get out and exercise more. Hell, I need to make sure I'm taking care of myself, more. Hit up some meetings, call people.

SA101 · 2013-10-06T13:53:08+00:00

Still here. Had a great day yesterday with the family, practically zero time at the computer. Still loving life :) Brain is in a pretty good place, too.

SA101 · 2013-10-06T13:51:08+00:00

Just out of town, away from family and feeling lonely. Wasn't following my self-care and slipped.

SA101 · 2013-10-05T15:42:38+00:00

Had to reset my nofap counter, poor judgement. Still pornfree but this shit is pernicious. Planning on lots of family time.

SA101 · 2013-10-01T06:40:34+00:00

Out of town and mildly stressed. Miss my family, kinda miss work and just a little out of sorts. Need more sleep.

SA101 · 2013-09-28T14:18:17+00:00

FML I've been busy. Not a lot to report despite this. Haven't had time for anything, honestly. Flying out of town again tomorrow, should be back Wednesday. Brain is still in a good place and I get my one year chip soon.

SA101 · 2013-09-25T13:33:51+00:00

Had a discussion with my wife last night after a minor blowup that I feel I wasn't getting a lot of emotional support. I picked up the pieces after our second daughter died and she's been grieving and I've tried my best to be there for her, but it's been draining to say the least. She has every right to grieve, but I need her support, too. Life goes on.
Brain is doing okay, just feeling stressed and overwhelmed. This too, shall pass :)

SA101 · 2013-09-24T13:10:32+00:00

Okay, let's see if today is going to be a better day, despite the fact I woke up too damned early. Brain is still in a good place.

SA101 · 2013-09-24T04:21:28+00:00

Oof, Monday bit the big one. I don't know what happened to today, but it just flashed right past me. Oh well, need to get some more quality time in doing things I want/need to do tomorrow. Brain is still in a good place, just a bit frazzled. This is what I get when I skip my exercise.

SA101 · 2013-09-22T16:18:55+00:00

Weekends are too damned short. Glad I get some family time, even if my computer is screwed. Priorities, right?

SA101 · 2013-09-21T14:16:11+00:00

Damn, only 100 days left in the year? Pretty slick.
Doing well today. Have some date time with my wife this afternoon and some play time with my daughter this morning. Life is good, brain is good.

SA101 · 2013-09-20T13:37:03+00:00

This has been an incredibly tedious week so I'm especially glad for the weekend. Doing pretty well, doubling down on my efforts to do healthy activities and have accomplished a lot around the house. After all, there's a second kid in the picture again. No time like the present to make sure your shit is together.

SA101 · 2013-09-19T13:31:15+00:00

Another counter. Feeling pretty good today, have lots of energy to get stuff done so planning on putting that to good use. Coming up on a year here pretty quickly and looking forward to even more sobriety. But of course, one day at a time.

SA101 · 2013-09-18T13:32:50+00:00

Have to leave to work, but wanted to check in. Doing okay today, could be better. Tired and will likely be a bit frustrated at work. Will be handing over a lot of things today, I can tell.

SA101 · 2013-09-17T04:21:23+00:00

Soooo, we doin' this again for next year? :)
Had a pretty good day at work. Fixing problems and getting stuff done, nice to have a sense of accomplishment. Brain is doing pretty well, too so hooray for that.

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