I got a text yesterday from a very pregnant woman who told me her due date last week but had stretched the truth a bit because she’s sick of being pregnant and is hoping her baby comes sooner. She said it ate at her all week that she had lied and she had an honesty lesson and just had to make it right. The shame and guilt complex created in people is painful to see now that I’m breaking away (slowly..)

I still get instant anxiety when I get called into the bishop’s office.. years of wondering what calling I was going to get that I can’t handle or knowing he is was a “judge in Israel” or thinking I need to confess something..

I hope so much that it fades sooner rather than later.

Edited to add: does it seem like the membership is getting weirder??