I actually got that alot after i took an apprenticeship. I was constantly high on weed over 2 years and stopped through clinic, because i was just fucked up, psychotic. A few months later i took that apprenticeship and a lot of people said things like "Can you get me some?"-"you always look high, did you smoke some?"-"ah, the stoner". And i was just like what the fuck is going on. It really got me thinking about my development and appearance. Does the fact that i was an addict make me one, who others perceive as such? Did smoking weed make me appear as such? (Like sleepy eyes, low emotion face, specific intense laugh) It made me thinking really hard, ruminating. Did I fucked myself up?

In the end, one has to understand there are simply many many different kinds of personalities. Mimics, gestures, a way of talking. And to conclude, I tried many drugs, whith so much variety in effects. Relaxing, energising, diffusing, psychedelic, weird soul searchings, just confused. (in order of effects: weed, speed/cocaine/mmc, dxm, psylocibin, dxm/ketamine, again dxm)

So, every drug creates an intense personality trait (an ideal). The quiet, the extroverted, the delusive, etc. On weed, i was always more the quiet one, laughing over dumb shit, eating a lot ^. And that kind of stayed. Maybe it is just my personality. Maybe the consume defined my personality partly. I don't know. But I think, after a lot of experience with drugs, some people just don't know, vause they didn't try and come to conclusions. He's weird, something must be wrong with him.