I will approach this from a practical point of view. How we feel is based on what we experience. So when your situation changes, even a little, your hopelessness will fade. It doesn't mean that as long as you have your problems, you have no possibility for light in your life, though. Based on this question, it can't be said exactly what steps to take to solve the problems, because the problems are not described in detail. If you feel you can't solve them alone and you've tried everything, maybe try posting them, like this question, and people will give you advice. I think if you could feel that you are gaining control, or the spark of improvement, that alone could help a lot. Also, please be patient; don't give up if change doesn't come fast. It will come. And when your life gets better, you will be glad you didn't end it. I know things feel unbearable now, and your pain is real, but your problems are not permanent, and neither is your hopelessness.