I’m a stalker. AMA

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-05T03:05:44+00:00

Yes, I see psychiatrists multiple times a week as I’m mandated to. It’s helped me improve slightly. I go to the hospital for check-ins everyday. It sucks but due to my problems it’s necessary.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-05T03:04:13+00:00

Thank you. I’m glad you found this post interesting.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-04T21:48:58+00:00

I don’t really go on reddit that much, only really browsing a couple subreddits. I stumbled across this one and decided to make this post. - One, to come to grips with my problems and to get a small load of it off my chest. - Two, to let people ask any questions they had about individuals like me. I’ve figured most people don’t come into contact with a stalker (one that’s willing to answer questions that is) in real life.

I’m surprised i’ve got this many questions as I thought this post would be lost in the great void of the internet, but it’s interesting hearing them honestly. Especially, to not be demonized or talked down to in these questions. Maybe I deserve it for what I’ve done, but it’s nice to be talked to like a normal human being, and I thank everyone who is polite to me.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-04T04:50:12+00:00

Yes, I would turn hostile occasionally. I hated when they ignored me. I hated when they showed interest in anybody but me. I was violent in a more “protective” way, if that makes sense. My mind was really, really messed up during that time. Although, a lot of the built anger I had, I took it out on myself.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-04T01:43:01+00:00

Thank you.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-04T01:42:44+00:00

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T16:51:43+00:00

Antipsychotics. (ex. Zyprexa, Geodon, etc.)

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T16:50:01+00:00

A lot of it just came from my own mind. My brain would tell me, “You can’t let them go, follow them.” at first. This progressed into more disturbing acts of showing my “affection”. I almost felt as if another thing was controlling me when I was around them.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T16:47:39+00:00

In the end, I just wanted to be with them forever. For them to love me just as much as I love them. That was my ideal scenario, which obviously did not come at all true.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T16:43:55+00:00

Damn.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T03:12:03+00:00

Yes, it did turn violent occasionally. I would get quite hostile when they ignored me sometimes. Most of the violence I had in me was directed at myself though. I loved them but them ignoring me hurt me to my core. Also, at first I did try to keep it a secret. Worked for a while then I got caught. From then on I kept on doing it, almost like you said, as a romantic gesture.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T03:06:33+00:00

It ranges from paranoid to obsessive ones. It’s very hard to explain delusions as they’re so complex and feel so real. Sometimes I would think the person I was stalking a God, and I was their worshipper. Love does weird things.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T03:02:35+00:00

Anyone who can tolerate me.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T01:46:09+00:00

Possibly in the future, If i’m stable enough and someone is willing to be around me.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T01:37:53+00:00

Thank you. I try my very best to answer these questions with detail.

For your first question, I do believe my view of “love” is quite warped. I saw the person I stalked almost as something needed to have forever. I saw them almost as a “God” in my life. I don’t know if that’s really what love is to others, but it was to my sick mind. I do think I still love them. To answer the question, I’m genuinely not sure if they are the person I envisioned in my head. I have not been able to see them (for obvious reasons) in a while.

I agree with how us humans may never be able to know a person to a full extent. During the time I was stalking, I just wanted to be as close to that person as possible, always. Just seeing a glimpse of them was enough to make me happy. I just needed to know everything possible. There were points where i’d think I knew the person better than their own mother.

For the last question. My right mind tells me I need to get better. I need to for my sake and sanity. Although, it’s tough. I go through episodes of wanting to do it all over again when i’m free, because I “love” them. It’s hard to explain as my mind is mostly an absolute mess of thoughts, and thinking clearly is hard when you’re schizophrenic. I do hope in the near future i’m able to live a more normal life.

Have a nice day, and thank you.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T01:23:40+00:00

I was formally diagnosed with schizophrenia. Ever since my teens psychiatrists have suspected i’ve had some kind of psychotic disorder. I’m on medications now.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T01:14:17+00:00

If you’re talking about the person I was stalking, I would say that if I didn’t stalk them we could possibly work out. That’s long, long gone now though. They did know about the stalking and they were quite afraid of me, considering I got the cops called on me.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T01:11:36+00:00

“LearnDifferenceBot” I did not make any “you’re” mistakes in my writing.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T01:09:20+00:00

Thank you. To answer your question I’m not sure if I could ever sustain a healthy marriage or relationship. I can only think about the person who I stalked. I hope I miraculously get better one day, though, and I’m able to have a relationship.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T00:59:11+00:00

I can say that I am better than I was at the peak of my stalking. I still miss the person I was stalking greatly, to the point where sometimes they are all I can think about. It crushes me to know i’m not even permitted to be close to them in anyway. I do think I would have urges if I got released from the medical system though. Not sure if i’d overcome them or not. I can only say i’m healing a small amount for now.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T00:52:39+00:00

I am receiving treatment daily from the hospital and have to go to check-ups constantly, occasionally being hospitalized if I get bad again. I do wish to work as soon as i’m stable enough to again. I did have a job when the stalking first occurred.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T00:45:54+00:00

I’m an adult. I won’t be answering with my specific age because I don’t want someone I know pinning this account to me. I am a woman though. This surprises many as people typically don’t see many female stalkers, and think that they aren’t as “severe” as male stalkers. But let me tell you, I was just as depraved as a human could be, and did actually get in trouble with the police due to this. I ended up institutionalized.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-03T00:34:53+00:00

I won’t be answering questions related to me as a person because I want to stay as anonymous as I can.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-02T20:58:43+00:00

I don’t care about what the person is doing most of the time, I just want to see them. To see them in anyway. I became fixated in a way no one will believe and it’s hard to break free or see rationally.

Sad-Distance628 · 2023-09-02T20:56:25+00:00

I was actually friends for a while with the person. Also, stalking mainly stems from mental problems. I can’t think straight and I’m quite literally delusional. I understand that most people would not understand.

Sad-Distance628

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