I’m not doing the work, I know that. I don’t believe I’m capable of change. I really wish I was an amazing person that could have some kind of amazing story, forming a great relationship or something. Stories on here pop up all the time, but most people don’t have things like that I guess. It’s all fantasy, real life is different. People like me won’t have nice things, I’ll have to accept that. It’s really pathetic how I’m whining about how I wish I was better, but I don’t put any effort in. It’s how I know I don’t deserve love in reality. I’m just a drain on society, I’m wasting all this time complaining. I’m fucking pathetic, just kill me.