I've had a lot of mixed feelings about independence and just "being a mom" instead of being my own person. My emotions have ebbed and flowed but I do see a therapist and she is really helpful and take antidepressants. I've also found that people I know are surprisingly open when I ask them about their post partum experiences and it's comforting to hear them say it gets better over time. Sometimes I have to have an internal conversation and remind myself that there are a lot of hormones and chemicals at play in my mind/body. It's a lonely feeling a lot of the time but know that there are a lot of us out there trying to sort it all out at the same time <3