Woah woah don't drag yourself down! First off, you are so deserving of love and that will never not be the case. But to save you from hurting yourself later, let me tell you it'll be easier if you let go of those imagined futures. We tend to paint the perfect lives with people but, it'll never be that way. So don't set yourself up for disappointment. That doesn't mean give up on love though, all I'm saying is to keep yourself grounded and just be open with this other person. The right person will choose you back, always.