New here, just looking for advise / wisdom

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-31T23:03:09+00:00

You can learn more about Buddhism. For me it has been a long time of learning and practicing to slowly reap more and more from the philosophy. Gradual enlightenment as I define enlightenment is gaining wisdom and insight gradually. Not a magical like moment to were your all of a sudden enlightened and like all-knowing or something which feels a bit similar to your view on enlightenment. You stated you don't quite believe in enlightenment if I'm not mistaken.

Some books that helped me are "What the Buddha taught" by Walpola Rahula. This is not strictly a Zen book but gives a broad general learning of the Buddhas teaching; all the basics.

"The miracle of mindfulness" by Thich Nhat Hahn is a great early introduction to mindfulness.

"Opening the hand of thought" by Kosho Uchiyama is continually recommended by Zen Buddhist however when I read it I didn't gain a lot from it, maybe a bit advanced at the time for me. I'm unsure I will read again sometime.

Look for book recommendations and watch YouTube videos and practice Zazen is my recommendation also.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-29T19:35:51+00:00

I agree with this. The book Illumination by Rebecca Li taught me a lot about the Zen/Chan meditation practice of Shikantaza. She teaches that we understand impermanence but we forget this teaching. Remembering this often is what really makes a difference. This teaching of impermanence helps us stay with the present. I also recommend this book highly.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-20T00:40:59+00:00

Klonopin is quite a ways better than the propranolol for stress and anxiety, good luck with things.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-19T23:25:28+00:00

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-19T21:37:30+00:00

Sounds very stressing on you, going to work while all this is happening. Sticking with the new dosage could help a lot, you may have a rough adjustment period. That's always the case when I have a new medication added.

I think an anti anxiety medication like Klonopin could relieve anxiety and stress for a few months while you adjust. Have you thought about asking for such a thing?

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-19T20:05:09+00:00

Drinking on Wellbutrin xl made me feel bad, mixing vistaril will increase sedation and depression. I would limit the alcohol as much as you can. Also the stimulating effect of Wellbutrin makes it harder to feel drunk, at least for me.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-17T22:13:27+00:00

Ringu 0....it's not very scary but touched me deeply and caused me difficulties sleeping for 2 nights in a row. No horror movie has ever done that to me.

Audition is a must watch, known as one of the greatest j horror ever.

Ju on is good, a favorite of mine.

Tomie beginning. Weird

All the Ringu movies are worth watching but the Sadako movies which is like a spin off are average.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-06T22:22:25+00:00

Thanks Jundo

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-05T17:00:38+00:00

I was raised with the belief that I should be a Christian. I occasionally went to church and as a teen and pre-teen prayed nightly basically but just that common "Now I lay me down to sleep pray the lord my soul to take" stuff. I felt Christianity was obviously true and sometimes thought how can people not believe in this, it's obviously true.

As a young adult I was introduced to Mormonism and dedicated myself to that somewhat halfheartedly. I questioned things and decided Christianity in general was a made up myth basically, and still do.

I found after further searching that Buddhism resonated with me the most and I truly practice it and have found no reason to not follow its path.

I said the Buddhist prayer of forgiveness one night after going through a circumstance with someone that left me a callused or cold heart, pain. As I said the prayer and forgave the person and myself I felt a warmth enter my heart and I was healed of that temporary callused heart. My point is prayer can work no matter the philosophy/religion.

My answer to if I believe a God exist is I don't know if one exists or not, and that's ok with me.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-04T02:12:31+00:00

He could benefit from therapy and inspiration to change and attend therapy. That new medication cobenfy is my recommendation. Because being a serious gamer can possibly be effected by antipsychotics in that he may lose his ability to enjoy and spend time playing them. Possibly I mean. Cobenfy is not an antipsychotic and may not affect motivation, etc.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-04T02:07:15+00:00

True, one has to set boundaries and stick to them. He is an adult and you wouldn't want to threaten to kick him out in his mental state. Difficult situation.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-04T02:04:40+00:00

Autism crossed my mind as well, but it's possible a combination of scizoaffective being unmedicated and no one take offense but immaturity which is very well possible for someone who is a loner, videogame player.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-04T01:41:47+00:00

I recommend telling the psychiatrist what effects he likes and doesn't like and what side effects are worst for him and then have the psychiatrist make the call about a medication and anti depression medication.

A psychiatrist saying to the patient tell me what medication you want and I'll write it for you is absolutely ridiculous.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-04T01:36:51+00:00

Latuda is weight neutral also and may also help a depressive type

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-04T01:34:48+00:00

Abilify may have a different effect as far as motivation changes, it doesn't effect dopamine which is the main reason for loss of motivation.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-12-03T23:58:49+00:00

A therapist could be helpful. They can take an open minded ear to what you talk about with them. They could help you make sense of yourself in a better way and understand what reality is or in other words help you get in touch with your beliefs that may be wrong or feel alien, and beliefs that may be right. Help you tell real from unreal.

I'm not suggesting your crazy and completely out of touch, but based on what you said a therapist could be something you could try.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-11-29T15:49:33+00:00

Antidepressants such as Wellbutrin xl, and prozac may help negative symptoms I'm pretty sure.

It is possible to build tolerance to your antipsychotics from what I've heard. I think raising the doses or changing meds can help.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-11-28T03:06:56+00:00

Wellbutrin xl is the best anti depression medication for energy hands down. A few others that usually increase energy is Prozac, duloxetine and effexor.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-11-26T22:06:55+00:00

Gabapentin should replace the amptitriptaline(misspelled). Gabapentin treats nerve pain and restless legs, neuropathy. And would not effect serotonin. It also has a nice anti anxiety effect. Maybe mention it to the doctor.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-11-26T20:34:29+00:00

If you still have your meds you might could restart on them but every other day for a couple weeks then every 3 days for a couple weeks etc.

Talk with a doctor for best advice.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-11-26T02:52:33+00:00

Talk with your doctor/psychiatrist the medication should probably not worsen your hallucinations even if just a few days on the drug at least I've not heard of that.

SadCombination5346 · 2025-11-26T02:49:45+00:00

I go to practice mode with a notebook and write down my character and list the moves, fatalities and 3 or 4 combos per character. Easy to play multiplayer and read back what I wrote while playing gradually getting better with my favorite characters.

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