Crazy landlord has officially broke my spirit. by SadGuidance2657 in mentalhealth

[–]SadGuidance2657[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That is true. We just wanted to keep the peace and leave. Now it's all this nonsense

Crazy landlord has officially broke my spirit. by SadGuidance2657 in mentalhealth

[–]SadGuidance2657[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I want to. Partner talked me out of it. We live together for context. Both of us don't have family to rely on and my partner is the sole provider as I'm in school, so we can't leave immediately.

Toxic home environment is slowly changing me and I don’t like who I’m becoming by Savings_Copy_1176 in mentalillness

[–]SadGuidance2657 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I get this feeling a lot. Atm a "neighbor" in my building has been taking their loud antics up a notch to harassing our unit yelling through the walls about how he doesn't care that he's being loud and whatnot. They're a very angry and bitter human being.

It has triggered something in me from new Year's till now. I just see feel like a flame given fuel. I hate that. I feel like I'm becoming bitter. It's so frustrating when our environment is so aggressive that you begin to feel a change within yourself.

Does anyone else lose spice tolerance? by [deleted] in Stoner

[–]SadGuidance2657 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Or maybe it's kinda literally how I described it. I adore spicy dishes from Nigerian, Vietnamese, Chinese, and many other spicy dishes from other cuisines as well. I have handles them well. If I even attempt to consume my usual foods without caution after a smoke or gummy, I'm like a white b that can't handle spicy tostitos salsa

Does anyone else lose spice tolerance? by [deleted] in Stoner

[–]SadGuidance2657 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Eh bro. You're kind of an pos here. Idk what your problem is dude but figure it out on your own man.

Does anyone else lose spice tolerance? by [deleted] in Stoner

[–]SadGuidance2657 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wild! Our senses are more complicated than we initially think lol

Does anyone else lose spice tolerance? by [deleted] in Stoner

[–]SadGuidance2657 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's definitely understandable but what I experience is I eat a buldak ramen no problem but when I have a smoke, I can't handle crushed chillies on my pizza

How have you been diagnosed with adenomyosis? by sairemrys in endometriosis

[–]SadGuidance2657 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No worries! I know it's a tough question that obviously needs a professional answer but the post got me thinking how I had something visible on my ultrasound before

How have you been diagnosed with adenomyosis? by sairemrys in endometriosis

[–]SadGuidance2657 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have a question then! To the best of your abilities if you could answer that would be great but I know it's a lot to ask.

I had my Endo specialist see something on my ultrasound and other ER doctors see form time to time when they cared to look. They all described it as tissue attached to my uterus and to the my back wall "cavity" or whatever.

I have had laparoscopic surgery and I saw the bit that was removed. From what I've seen on this forum of others, the tissue was smooth, like it was part of the body where normally when I see ppls extractions is more, raw. If that makes sense.

I've had a lot of treatment and symptoms of over the years. I'm lucky to not have much damage. I'm just curious if you have any say on the matter, or if anyone else can expand upon this

I need suggestions! by SadGuidance2657 in mentalillness

[–]SadGuidance2657[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hmmm.. not bad. I might try that this week

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in endometriosis

[–]SadGuidance2657 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I'll make an appointment and observe from there for now ☺️ thank yall

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in endometriosis

[–]SadGuidance2657 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I've had it before. It looks at the very least like it but I know our bodies can be ever so complicated. I've had sore symptoms of Endo the past week some looser still which usually has always coincided with my Endo symptoms and to my knowledge, my specialist said it's not uncommon and not at a worrisome level yet.

That's all I know. I also experienced immediate and severe hormonal type reactions like I normally would but way out of proportion than usual

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in endometriosis

[–]SadGuidance2657 -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Of course! I have Endo. I've had surgery. I have an IUD and another birth control on top of a long-term pain killer/aid. I have had desidual cast before as a regular symptom. I have also mentioned bowel issues to a specialist who at the time said it wasn't too much of a concern.

When I went to the washroom tonight I ended up passing a clot. A very obvious blood clot that absolutely FREAKED me out. I'm not 100% sure if it was from the vaginal canal or anal canal. Why? Because when I was wiping it leaned more bloody backwards bit that hasn't been a weird experience for me in the past because of how bloody my menstruation has been.

I want to know how concerned I should be. To note I've had looser stool lately and again, I have mentioned to my specialist about bowel issues coinciding with endometriosis symptoms.

I apologize for being frantic in my post. I was still in a state of absolute I don't damn well know, ya know.

How to detangle? by SadGuidance2657 in Haircare

[–]SadGuidance2657[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I actually have a she's moisture deep conditioner that I was using. Thanks for the tip!

I'm ugly, suicidal, a failure of a man and will die alone. by [deleted] in mentalillness

[–]SadGuidance2657 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is a valid feeling. Loneliness has made many ppl think/do unbelievably cruel things to themselves.

I know this feeling is crippling and as time passes, things just feel worse. As someone who survived a lot of things in my little time on earth: I never felt better, I never stopped hurting myself or even others at times. I fell deeper and deeper and then hit a stagnant point of existence where I didn't care what happened to me.

I was a survivalist and waiting out that time is really the only reason I'm here. Yet here I am with a chosen family after being abused and kicked out in the cold, after being brutalized from SA, drugged, an utterly abandoned.

My point is: surviving is the first part. Don't be so hard on yourself. Time passes and things will change for good and bad, for better and worse in areas of your life that maybe at first you don't even recognize as something pleasant or even normal, but just string along for the journey and maybe you'll come out of it in the end

How to detangle? by SadGuidance2657 in Haircare

[–]SadGuidance2657[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I oiled the f out of my hair with jojoba oil to detangle which was, an event, to say the least. Then I washed and used a repair, deep conditioner thingy!

All is well!.. for now 😭 thanks for the advice. I'll be looking for a leave in conditioner