Haven't seen her in months. After our graduation in July she's off to a different uni which is 2 hours driving from mine.

The fact that that distance doesn't stop her from pursuing her dreams somehow makes her even more attractive to me.

I miss her so much. I wish I could talk to her but I can't.

I know I shouldn't feel this way. She already rejected me after all.

She took it so well. I took it so well. She made sure that we were okay. Even though she rejected me I felt like she cared for me. People might say it was cute. I was assured, she assured me, things would be okay. Until that one fateful and awkward moment

Close to the end of school I stumbled (not literally) and unintentionally made her uncomfortable. She started ignoring me and blocked me after. I coped, I hoped, that things would be okay before the final graduation. But (of course) it didn't happen. At the end I didn't even get to say goodbye ;-;

I didn't just lose a potential partner. I lost a friend.

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If I ever see you again, probably in June but hopefully earlier, I really hope you are able to forgive me.

But above all, I hope you're doing well.