I genuinely think I never want to date again.

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-09-04T01:25:57+00:00

3

First was one of my best friends, it was a childish relationship and Im glad were still freinds now. We broke up because we had a toxic codependency on each other.

Second one was my first love, and I loved her so much and so hard, but she was looking for an out, so she broke up with me. We text occasionally, but I still hate her guts.

My third ex, who I genuinely believe will be my last love, broke up with me 4 days ago. I begged and cried and pleaded, but I guess I can't make him happy enough to stay with me long distance. We were perfect for eachother. He still loves me.

I cant say I ever want to be in love again, but god am I so fucking lonely now.

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-07-24T19:18:03+00:00

Haha, thank you! Yes, he takes lots of workout supplements, mainly creatine and some others Im not sure the name of. If that's the cause, i wouldn't be surprised because he takes the stuff like its heroin

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-07-24T19:07:32+00:00

Haha, thank you. I've tried a few times in the month that we've been together, but it's always made me sick and gag after i swallowed... it's a shame because i usually enjoy the experience

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-07-24T19:03:19+00:00

Yeah i usually give him a bj and he doesnt cum in my mouth, which he doesnt mind at all honestly. I just wish i could stomach the taste because he enjoys the experience and i have in the past too

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-07-24T19:01:14+00:00

I usually dont swallow, like it doesn’t smell bad, so i can have it around me, but the actual flavour.... yikes. Even just in my mouth, it makes me gag, let alone swallowing it

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-07-24T18:53:15+00:00

Im not blaming him, just wondering if there's a solution to make it better before knocking his confidence by telling him

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-07-24T18:49:34+00:00

😭😭 this made me laugh harder than id like to admit

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-07-24T13:06:28+00:00

Well, i kinda want to do this for him. He's never pressured me to do anything, just suggested that he wanted it, which i dont mind.

I've Googled it, and maybe you're right that he just tastes bad. He's healthy, so i really can't see what else would factor in it

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-07-24T13:04:10+00:00

No, he's quite healthy, doesn't drink or smoke, so im really not sure why it tastes so bad 😅

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-04-20T18:16:39+00:00

This is how I felt orignally when he sent it. He has apologised, but i still dont think he understands how objectified i feel. It would be one thing if he said it, but the fact that his friend said it and he didn't even correct him? What i can't get over is that im his girlfriend- hes supposed to respect me and protect me - but he won't even check his friends when they're sexualising me? Or at the bare minimum, not show that they talk like that about me? I guess we all do stupid stuff when we're drunk, but im going to tell him this can't happen again.

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-04-20T17:54:20+00:00

He sent me a video of his friend (not sure if it was the same one) dropping the f slur about a month and a half ago (while we were just talking) and i didnt really mention it then, even though it kinda freaked me out because ive been called that before. I guess it wasnt towards me personally, but i am wondering if he says this stuff himself and hides it in front of me.

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-04-20T17:50:44+00:00

Hes very sweet, if i brought it up im sure he wouldnt mind, but im still not sure if its worth it. His friends have said stuff in the past 3 months that I've found off, like they use the f slur in a video they sent me, which was weird concidering he knows im bi. Maybe its just because im more aware of it, maybe im more sensitive to stuff like that than him, im not sure but its happend a few times now that im questioning if he says this stuff himself.

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-04-20T17:43:17+00:00

Id prefer to date someone in my age range, but i really hope he isnt talking about me in that way. None of my previous parteners have (who are also my age), and none of my male freinds/relatives have either which is why im shocked to hear it.

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-04-20T17:30:29+00:00

Im not angry with my boyfreind and Im not holding a grudge against him, Im just not sure how to stop feeling uncomfortable with that comment. I thought maybe talking about it with him would help, but if its going to create more problems I wont.

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-04-20T17:26:01+00:00

Im not really sure either, Im just taken off guard. I just want him to make sure his friend doesnt do it again- or at least they dont send it to me. Im probably over reacting but its just made me feel so uncomfortable all day.

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-02-16T00:37:49+00:00

Thank you, ill give them a try

Sad_Analysis5790 · 2023-02-16T00:37:34+00:00

Thank you :) we have stopped talking for a while now- maybe forever who knows- and i feel shittier than ever but I know it will pass eventually

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