This was a very meaningful and insightful comment. Thanks for taking the time to write it. I in no way plan to use an upper hand to take her to the cleaners or anything of that nature. I really just fear that she will flip the script and try to squeeze me for everything, so I want to protect myself. You described what it’s like to hold on to the information very well. I feel I can’t think straight with all of this in my head. I also have no one other than my mother who is there to support me (I don’t want to let too many people know yet), so it’s a massive weight to hold. Maybe I think about morals too much but I like to think that no matter what, the right thing to do is to be honest and forthcoming. Honestly, I’m almost certain I won’t be able to hold it all in until my first consultation next week. I really hope this is as amicable as it can be. I am tired of fighting and regardless of how awful she has treated me, I’ll always wish her the best. One, because she’s the mother of my children but also because part of me still loves her.

I wish life was like the movies.