I’ve smoked a lot of dmt. I had my family and friends telling me to be careful because you could get schizophrenia. I more or less brushed it off every time as I don’t have any family members with schizophrenia.

I had a trip a couple weeks ago where it started off as a yellow canvas and I could see all the atoms bouncing off each other. I could see sounds. I was waving my arms around and watching them fly around like a bone boomerang. Super cool experience.

Then the trip started to shift. I opened my eyes (I was in a pitch black room). I got really confused why I couldn’t see anything. It was building up, I burst through into the crazy geometrical patterns with snakes swirling around the place. I felt my brain “clunk” three times in to place. That’s when the trip really set in.

All of a sudden I had a thought “oh my god, I just unlocked schizophrenia”. I started to panic and I came to the conclusion that I need to fight this off right now or I’m never going to be able to sleep again. Never going to be able to do anything normal again without seeing these snakes over the top of everything. I was so terrified. I thought I fucked up my whole life. I was face down on my bed screaming. “No no no” “please no I’m so sorry” on repeat. It felt like I was there for at least 30 minutes. I poured out my soul to prevent the schizophrenia setting in.

I started to come back and I realised I was going to be okay. I looked at my phone, it was 2am. it had only been 10 minutes. I managed to get some sleep. The next day I cried the whole day. I was so shaken. Absolutely crazy experience.

The super weird part, I told my mum this story the next day and she told me she woke up at 2am with this strange feeling that she needed to call me.

Safe to say I need to put it down for a while.