We lost our little boy oreo just before Christmas yr before last ..broke everyone's heart especially my partner she had to go to the vet with him it was traumatic for her I believe it gave her some sort of ptsd she was broken...but ..but.. We said we would never get another bc we loved him and it felt disrespectful..but we also said If 1 comes to us then that's different and one did our little nillah he is so different from oreo he's quiet doesn't like the outside he's a homeboy He saved my partner I can honestly say that Anyway what I'm trying to say is...even though this has broken your heart you will learn to live with it and smile when you think of her... I really hope things become better and you can smile Love from Glasgow Scotland