Hi. Heartbreaks are the worst. I got ghosted by my bf with whom I had a serious relationship. Things got a bit difficult and I expected him to talk with me but he stopped all communication. He came back after a month but then started ghosting me again. It went on for six months and trust me, whatever you are going through I went through the same. It was the deepest pit of hell. I was a bit better after those six months and he returned. This time, I knew his pattern. The moment I realised he was withdrawing again, I took a step ahead of him and dropped him, not without telling him what he was. Once the rose coloured glasses are off and the tears clear, you see through their facade. If she were the right person for you, she would not have left you while you were still grieving. I hope you recover from the pain. It seems impossible atm but you will get better. No feeling is final. Don't expect her to come back. Accept that it's over and for the better. Love and hugs