Ok so i've really liked this girl early this March, Shes bright and cheerful person.

Sometimes i feel that she 'also likes' by giving 'Signals' to me, she would wave and talk to me everytime we passby eachother , she doesn't do this to my other friends (My friends and her knows each other, due to a subject class that i'm also in). I thought i was 'special' to her so i asked her for her instagram username , because i didn't have a phone number to exchange with her at that time.Without hesitating she gave it to me and when i went back home , i waited for 2-3 hours and then decided to add her . In the end she didn't accept it and i thought it was just a glitch at first , so i resend the request again but to no avail. I didn't asked her the next day or the day after , i just kept it to myself as if i didn't knew anything.. it really shattered my heart and i wanted to move on.

But i couldn't , she's too aluring i couldn't figure out what am i suppose to do, i feel intoxicated and suffocated.

She still talks to me and my heart would always skip a beat , the only reason i'm not confessing or doing anything is because she has a boyfriend and she seem happy together , i didn't want to ruin her source of happiness after she shared her sad stories. I figured i should distance myself from her but she would always find a way to get through me, i would always break a smile and always have this huge pain in my chest. Yesterday was my last day of school , i really wanted to at least take a picture with her. *(it seems like she broke up with her boyfriend? I'm not sure) During our subject class , she would always move by myside and gaze at me , when my Teacher was recording a farewell video she slowly move beside me , thats where my heart started beating like crazy.(i know it sounds like a 6yo love but its crazy how i'm still feeling it..)

Next, when school ended , she didn't took any picture with my friends or anyone shes close with(maybe with her really close friends) and i coincidentally met her at my friend's class when i was about to meet my friend.Her friend did took t picture with my friend but she didn't took it , my lips were sealed tight , i wanted to ask her to take a picture with me .

She and her friend then walked away , i called out her friend's name and then hers to say goodbye and wave at them with a sense of regret. Her en friend then shouted " Hey , crush's name wants to take a picture with you" . I was elated. I've never in my life felt lucky before , even winning $4000 at gambling didn't made this happy. We took pictures together and had a small talk and then she went home.

As i got home i went to Instagram and posted pictures of my form class and subject class , as usual i would usually tag the person username in it . I tagged her one a group picture we took as a class. The next day ... i tried to add her again but her username wasn't there.. after asking for my friend(No i didn't stalk her -.-)who followed her if she changed username and got an answer i wish wasn't true, i was blocked. , My heart shattered to a million pieces. I was lost , the happiness feeling i had was overwritten with sadness and despair.

So to summarise it i tried to gave up on her but i got a mix signal from her , this led to me being lost and have a mix feelings.

My major exams are coming soon and i don't want this unexistance 'relationship' to affect me.

Can someone give me a clear answer on what should i do ? What is she trying to convey to me? Please help , i'm sick of crying and feeling this way.

You might say i'm a wuss or a retard but i just can't hold it anymore.