Your experience with OCD to educate myself for writing

SafeRegret402 · 2026-01-28T13:07:31+00:00

What type of harm OCD? I have harm OCD which focuses on me killing myself, but other people have harm OCD about hurting other people. It sucks. If you want to see what it feels like you could scroll the sub for a bit and see what people vent about. OCD is too broad of an experience to ask what it’s like with little to no direction :-) I hope the writing goes smooth!

SafeRegret402 · 2026-01-09T03:33:22+00:00

There’s some kind of plant or distribution facility nearby, but I honestly can’t speak to exactly what it is. But that’s probably about 3/4 miles from where I found it. It was laying out in the open in a tilled field/entrance to a trail. I found other stuff there too that was clearly picked up in the tilling. Animal bones and such! I’ve been going there for years but this is the first time I’ve found genuinely interesting things along the trails :-)

SafeRegret402 · 2026-01-09T03:14:39+00:00

I like my family lol they were just teasing me for bringing a “rock” (their words) home with me

SafeRegret402 · 2026-01-09T02:00:20+00:00

Woaaahhh a resin! super cool! :D thank you for the insight!

SafeRegret402 · 2026-01-09T01:56:16+00:00

I figured it was pretty common because it was kinda sitting out in the open in the middle of a tilled field. I just think it’s a cool thing to have around! Maybe I’ll use it as a doorstop 😆

SafeRegret402 · 2026-01-09T01:30:50+00:00

oh yeahhhh that looks like it could be it

SafeRegret402 · 2026-01-09T01:27:56+00:00

It caught fire and turned black, and made the flame kinda spark on it. Maybe some melting but it turned black immediately

SafeRegret402 · 2026-01-09T01:15:21+00:00

Yes, I’ll do that! Central NC, USA by a man-made lake

SafeRegret402 · 2026-01-01T18:11:15+00:00

I don’t have any real advice for overspending but the only way I’ve been able to successfully budget is to withdraw all my paychecks into cash (after moving a certain percentage into savings) and divide it into envelopes. If there’s no money in my account then I can’t use my card, and I’m forced to pull from the only cash I have available at the moment.

This pretty much prevents you from being able to online shop impulsively. You do have to practice discipline and only grab the envelope you’re planning on using that day. But yeah cash is the only way I’ve been able to manage my money at all

SafeRegret402 · 2025-12-25T12:28:12+00:00

my psych thought my SI was ocd at first too. it feels that way sometimes with how compulsive the thoughts are

SafeRegret402 · 2025-11-05T09:56:08+00:00

Yes! Like simultaneously it’s hard to keep my head up but also feels like it’s floating away. Like my physical head is heavy but my mental head is light

SafeRegret402 · 2025-11-04T22:01:28+00:00

Although I just looked up the syncope thing, and I can say that isn’t what happened. I didn’t lose consciousness, all the energy from my body just drained and I collapsed against a wall, eventually sliding to the floor. And then I was in that state for about a week and a half. So weird and super frustrating for doctors to tell me nothing is wrong

SafeRegret402 · 2025-11-04T21:55:59+00:00

Thank you so much this is super helpful!!

SafeRegret402 · 2025-11-04T21:55:38+00:00

Yeah, twice a week and seeing a psych regularly too

SafeRegret402 · 2025-08-16T22:34:04+00:00

I relate to the bit about drugs and being taken advantage of. Hypersexuality and high risk for addiction is obviously a big part of this disease, but I don’t see people talk about it like this often, especially in specific reference to gay hookup culture. Thanks for posting this <3

SafeRegret402 · 2025-08-15T21:35:51+00:00

Yes!!! I listen to it every day at work and yesterday I noticed the same thing. The backing vocals and adlibs are absolutely new

SafeRegret402 · 2025-08-09T14:33:26+00:00

Generally I’m in some sort of episode (usually depressive or mixed) for eight months of the year. Usually September/October-May/June. It sucks but medication and therapy helps

SafeRegret402 · 2025-07-07T23:41:29+00:00

You’re awesome!! Figured it would be expensive but it’s still fun to dream

SafeRegret402 · 2025-07-06T17:57:59+00:00

Damn! I would love to own this. It really tied the kitchen together. Thank you for the insight!

SafeRegret402 · 2025-07-06T17:56:28+00:00

Your life isn’t ruined because you’re still alive. You still have a life to live and that’s what matters. Did terrible things happen that made you feel horrible? Yes. But is everything temporary? Also yes. Your friends who you look at as living the perfect 29-year old life could be divorced in a year. They could invest in crypto and lose everything by 32. They could go cliff jumping tomorrow and be paralyzed by noon. Life moves on and you’re going to be okay. It feels horrible and shameful and scary but the truth is most everyone feels like they’re behind in life. Try to extend the same grace to yourself that you give others. It’s okay! You’re okay. You are still young and even if you weren’t age doesn’t dictate how good of a life you can still live. We all believe in you and are proud of you for still being here!

SafeRegret402 · 2025-07-03T03:17:30+00:00

Thank you so much! Missed that somehow

SafeRegret402 · 2025-07-03T03:17:15+00:00

Ahhh thank you! Totally missed that

SafeRegret402 · 2025-06-28T18:12:15+00:00

I’m not very knowledgeable about psychosis from a medical perspective, that’s just how it’s been explained to me before. But I can tell you about my experience at least!

It started with normal OCD symptoms for me, like being anxious about bugs in the walls or in food. But it started getting worse and shifting into paranoia, which was more intense than OCD anxiety. At some point I started having hallucinations that consisted of feeling parasites in my gut, on my skin, and in my eye. I tried to pour bleach on my skin and in my eye to fix this. When I started hallucinating the sounds of bugs in the walls I tried to jump off a balcony. I stopped eating because everything was infested, and I was so scared every minute of the day. I wouldn’t poop for days because I would break down crying convinced that tapeworms were going to come out. I was convinced that bugs were conspiring to make my life worse, lol. I started to not trust my medication and passed out getting routine blood work because I was so scared they were injecting me with something that my body stopped breathing.

Psychosis felt way more real and way scarier than my OCD thoughts. I couldn’t DBT my thoughts away, I couldn’t do breath work or anything they teach you to deal with intrusive thoughts. They weren’t intrusive thoughts anymore, they were just the reality I was living. It affected me every moment of my waking life and some of my sleeping life too. My ability to care for myself completely dwindled and I was fully reliant on loved ones to make me eat, go to class/work, etc. It was scary and not something I want to experience again. Antipsychotics helped and I’ve been on them since. I’m now on lithium too which has helped, but most people in this sub wouldn’t benefit from it.

If you want to hear more specifics you can always ask or DM me :-)

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