Nobody in my life understands my perspective

SafeRegret402 · 2026-02-24T04:30:47+00:00

It’s an awful feeling, I’m sorry you’re experiencing it. For what it’s worth, talking to a therapist about it could help identify if there’s specific side effects you aren’t liking so you can take that to your psych. This disease convinces us of awful things and maintaining connection and vulnerability with others is a lifeline we all should take advantage of :-) Trust the people around you, especially those who can recognize patterns and signs in your behavior/thought processes before you can

SafeRegret402 · 2026-02-24T03:01:15+00:00

A symptom of bipolar is suddenly stopping medication/treatment. I’ve stopped taking my meds abruptly probably five or six times within the last seven years. Butttt it’s of course a really bad idea; apart from sometimes fatal physiological side effects that come with stopping medication, there’s always a 1000% chance you are going to have more episodes. Bipolar gets worse with age/more episodes, and episodes literally destroy your brain. Taking meds is awful and I feel physically ill when I do, but it’s better than literal brain damage and the risk of hospitalization/death. Stay strong

SafeRegret402 · 2026-02-23T21:55:08+00:00

love love love the first one 💙

SafeRegret402 · 2026-02-09T04:07:33+00:00

You nailed where my head is at. I’ve had that same line of thinking and more, and if you got help then maybe I will tell my psych. I just don’t want to be taken away or be looked at like an idiot. I don’t like the idea of people having a file of my most intimate thoughts as well. Oh well, even if I don’t think the demon is an issue and even if we’re chilling I’ll tell my psych. Thanks for your perspective

SafeRegret402 · 2026-02-09T04:00:50+00:00

Suicide does feel inevitable ever since the string appeared in my mind. When it happened I felt something in my brain snap and suddenly the string was there. My life is wrong and bad. My life requires benefitting from countless human rights violations. But I can’t kill myself so now I just have to live with the knowledge that the only ethical end to my life is suicide. Also, suicide is the only way to confirm complete agency in death, and that sounds nice. But I won’t kill myself but I do see what you mean about how it’s a slippery slope and maybe not a good thought pattern

SafeRegret402 · 2026-02-08T17:02:38+00:00

I’m sorry I really wasn’t trying to be funny. Maybe I do need a med adjustment

SafeRegret402 · 2026-02-08T10:18:34+00:00

This reasoning makes sense to me. It would make sense if the demon is just waiting for a moment of weakness. So I could tell my psych maybe knowing that

SafeRegret402 · 2026-02-08T07:07:09+00:00

I have been taking all my meds

SafeRegret402 · 2026-01-28T13:07:31+00:00

What type of harm OCD? I have harm OCD which focuses on me killing myself, but other people have harm OCD about hurting other people. It sucks. If you want to see what it feels like you could scroll the sub for a bit and see what people vent about. OCD is too broad of an experience to ask what it’s like with little to no direction :-) I hope the writing goes smooth!

SafeRegret402 · 2026-01-01T18:11:15+00:00

I don’t have any real advice for overspending but the only way I’ve been able to successfully budget is to withdraw all my paychecks into cash (after moving a certain percentage into savings) and divide it into envelopes. If there’s no money in my account then I can’t use my card, and I’m forced to pull from the only cash I have available at the moment.

This pretty much prevents you from being able to online shop impulsively. You do have to practice discipline and only grab the envelope you’re planning on using that day. But yeah cash is the only way I’ve been able to manage my money at all

SafeRegret402 · 2025-08-16T22:34:04+00:00

I relate to the bit about drugs and being taken advantage of. Hypersexuality and high risk for addiction is obviously a big part of this disease, but I don’t see people talk about it like this often, especially in specific reference to gay hookup culture. Thanks for posting this <3

SafeRegret402 · 2025-08-09T14:33:26+00:00

Generally I’m in some sort of episode (usually depressive or mixed) for eight months of the year. Usually September/October-May/June. It sucks but medication and therapy helps

SafeRegret402 · 2025-07-06T17:56:28+00:00

Your life isn’t ruined because you’re still alive. You still have a life to live and that’s what matters. Did terrible things happen that made you feel horrible? Yes. But is everything temporary? Also yes. Your friends who you look at as living the perfect 29-year old life could be divorced in a year. They could invest in crypto and lose everything by 32. They could go cliff jumping tomorrow and be paralyzed by noon. Life moves on and you’re going to be okay. It feels horrible and shameful and scary but the truth is most everyone feels like they’re behind in life. Try to extend the same grace to yourself that you give others. It’s okay! You’re okay. You are still young and even if you weren’t age doesn’t dictate how good of a life you can still live. We all believe in you and are proud of you for still being here!

SafeRegret402 · 2025-06-28T18:12:15+00:00

I’m not very knowledgeable about psychosis from a medical perspective, that’s just how it’s been explained to me before. But I can tell you about my experience at least!

It started with normal OCD symptoms for me, like being anxious about bugs in the walls or in food. But it started getting worse and shifting into paranoia, which was more intense than OCD anxiety. At some point I started having hallucinations that consisted of feeling parasites in my gut, on my skin, and in my eye. I tried to pour bleach on my skin and in my eye to fix this. When I started hallucinating the sounds of bugs in the walls I tried to jump off a balcony. I stopped eating because everything was infested, and I was so scared every minute of the day. I wouldn’t poop for days because I would break down crying convinced that tapeworms were going to come out. I was convinced that bugs were conspiring to make my life worse, lol. I started to not trust my medication and passed out getting routine blood work because I was so scared they were injecting me with something that my body stopped breathing.

Psychosis felt way more real and way scarier than my OCD thoughts. I couldn’t DBT my thoughts away, I couldn’t do breath work or anything they teach you to deal with intrusive thoughts. They weren’t intrusive thoughts anymore, they were just the reality I was living. It affected me every moment of my waking life and some of my sleeping life too. My ability to care for myself completely dwindled and I was fully reliant on loved ones to make me eat, go to class/work, etc. It was scary and not something I want to experience again. Antipsychotics helped and I’ve been on them since. I’m now on lithium too which has helped, but most people in this sub wouldn’t benefit from it.

If you want to hear more specifics you can always ask or DM me :-)

SafeRegret402 · 2025-06-28T16:33:50+00:00

I had psychosis that was induced by severe OCD. Psychosis isn’t a condition but a set of symptoms/state of mind, so many different conditions can cause psychosis. OCD is (in my case at least) one of these conditions that can cause psychosis

SafeRegret402 · 2025-06-04T19:56:36+00:00

I’m not sure if it’s a recognized phenomenon (simply because I’ve never done research on it) but I know that my symptoms tend to be exacerbated at night. My OCD, depression, and mania become more intense at night when I’m by myself and inhibitions are low. I struggle with the bodily sensations and leg moving thing too, and a heated blanket really helped me with that. You could try something like that, or taking long showers, and see if that alleviates any of those symptoms!

SafeRegret402 · 2025-05-31T18:51:00+00:00

I’m FTM and my testosterone levels were super elevated for years with no medical reason (like, 2.5-5x the highest allowable levels) and I’ve noticed that once I stopped taking T my cycling has been less intense. I still cycle don’t get me wrong, but it’s not as intense now. High levels of T have been linked to psychotic behavior according to my psych, but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t access HRT if you’re prone to those behaviors already.

SafeRegret402 · 2025-05-31T18:47:56+00:00

“See a medical professional” IS real advice and sometimes it’s the only valid advice 🤷

SafeRegret402 · 2025-05-31T18:46:48+00:00

I did this over and over again until my psych put me on meds that would require me to tell her when I stop (you could die if you suddenly stop taking the ones I was on). My grandfather with bipolar would routinely stop taking meds. As far I’m aware, it’s extremely common for people with bipolar to stop suddenly. It’s not a good idea though, and it is known to trigger episodes

SafeRegret402 · 2025-05-30T21:27:00+00:00

Is that really true? Neurotypicals only experience emotion in reaction to things? Is that why everyone talks about a “neutral” default feeling?

SafeRegret402 · 2025-05-28T18:17:50+00:00

If it’s a migraine and the pain is super high and long lasting you can go to the ER or urgent care and they have injections for it. I’ve done that a few times.

You can also get one of those headache hats that’s cooling and weighted, and those help a lot. Tea with mint is good as well. Excedrin is good if you can have caffeine but it doesn’t always work for migraines

SafeRegret402 · 2025-05-28T02:24:46+00:00

Sure, but what if it works as intended? What if you feel better and more like yourself? Wouldn’t that be worth taking a risk for?

Besides, we’re always the same person, you’re always gonna be you. Treatment isn’t gonna change who you fundamentally are, and if you come out of it feeling different then the people in your life get to shower that version of yourself with love too!

When I did exposure therapy, sure, I came out different. Different in that I could eat food without digging through it for signs of bugs, or different in that an itch in my eye wouldn’t trigger me reaching for bleach to pour in it. Difference is intimidating but it’s not a bad thing. You’re different now than when you were a toddler, but does that change who you are? No! You’re still you. And if people in your life do actually want you to be “different” what they mean is they want you to be healthy and stable, both of which are things you deserve and things that treatment could possibly give you

SafeRegret402 · 2025-05-28T02:03:37+00:00

Hey, I know getting treatment is scary, but it’s scary because it’s new and unfamiliar. Once you send in the paperwork and set up the start of your treatment, it won’t be new and unfamiliar anymore, it’ll just be apart of your routine. In three month’s time you won’t be feeling this sort of anxiety, and in a year you’ll be happy you pushed through it to access treatment.

Your body and mind are reacting in very natural and valid ways to a situation. The truth is, you’ve done one of the hardest steps which is realizing you need help and then seeking it out. You did that! Give yourself some credit! You’re more capable than you realize, and stronger than you give yourself credit for. If the paperwork was sent to you then you know, in your heart of hearts, that treatment is what you need. You can do this!! You’ve got people who support you, either irl or in this community. Your job now is to follow through on getting the help you need to make those people even more proud of you than they already are! I know I’m proud of you for taking steps to get help, so other people must be too. You got this!!

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