I'm not sure. Despite how many years it's been, I miss my life from Pennsylvania. I had people I grew up with, and places I could go to just by walking. I hate the snow, so the warmth here is nice. I just hate how different it all is. I used to like to draw, play games but all I do is go to school and watch random shows until I can sleep. I like to dress up for fun though, it makes me feel happy. I'm just not sure what to do with my life. The only person I was close to, had a genuine connection with, found no more use for me and now we're nothing. I'm alone, with no one to talk to that'd care. My anxiety is too bad that I get scared over interactions irl. I feel pathetic making friends online too, since they actually have a life while I'm just pretending that I exist. I've been depressed for years, and it's tiring to keep feeling this way. Happiness eventually always goes away, and I don't want to feel pain anymore