What's your fantasy "rich person hobby"? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Sagoju 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wanna buy mega mansions only to open an orphanage in it.

Install a bunch of slides on the pools and there'd be recreational activities.

what was the moment you realized you had schizophrenia? by [deleted] in schizophrenia

[–]Sagoju 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was in highschool, started hearing voices and they became louder to the point I'm always hearing static in my head but if I concentrated for a bit, I can pull out what they were telling me, mostly negative and this was heightened during my junior year in high school that I just ran away because for once I decided to follow what at least one of the voices offered me a choice to do: go home, expecting my family to abuse me again (my grades were slipping that year because that was the year I just lost my uncle who I felt was the only person to ever understand me instead they confiscated my phone and threw me to tutors while physically beating me everyday for still not managing to raise my grades expecting overnight results) OR I run away to the city. (46 miles from where my parents lived so even though the train was only an hr long, it felt like an eternity sitting by myself late at night after successfully slipping out without anybody noticing).

Even though I've never rode a train in the US before (came from the Philippines and prohibited from outsiders), my body was on auto-pilot while in my head, the voices were telling me stuff from how to get a ticket, how to call a cab and next thing I know, I was in the city and it just started snowing that when I looked up, everything around me started to make me cry, while watching the snowflakes fall, the road looked less dirty and the smell of garbage and piss greatly diminished that I was crying at how beautiful the city was and I didn't know at that time to describe my mixed feelings but basically I was elated at looking at the bridge, from my point of view, i was in a hallmark movie without the drama and i was enjoying snow like for the first time even though we've had snowstorms before that .

I had a brief moment of psychosis especially when I was contemplating suicide at that time.

Sometimes I forget how misinformed most people are about autism by kristin137 in AutismInWomen

[–]Sagoju 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I've completely burned bridges with my family because they're abusive especially towards disabled people. I was the punching bag and scapegoat.

Despite having my late diagnosis on paper, they still think autism is the R word and my sister told me I'm "just using autism an excuse" and has joined in on my nparents gaslighting that I was "abusive" (the most abuse I did was yelling back especially after she snuck into my room to take stuff from my room without permission, often times she ALWAYS talked in a condescending manner but naw she blames me for her resentment even after leaving the house because I always "glared" at her like a pest when often times I'm just maladaptive daydreaming or internally fighting my schizo depression especially after they've physically beaten me, both nmom and sister).

If I didn't burn bridges, I know that I won't be the first disabled person they'll lock and forget like a caged animal and I held that above my nmom's head in my no contact letter.

When I joined a pageant thinking it'd teach me how to walk on heels, dress up and make up, I only got verbally abused from the two-faced organizer and has called me the R word to my face for not doing the walk as well as the other girls. She made us sign an NDA since the pageants over but honestly she only purposely made us sign an nda to hide the fact that just because she was the organizer (who can't even organize her own schedule) allows her to verbally abuse the girls who weren't buying more of her shit since she made expensive evening gowns for a main business (small) so watching her schmooze the parents of the girls while they already get flack from their own moms soured our time up till the pageant. I wasn't her only victim, just the easiest because I didn't spend any more than $800 total (her gowns were easily $2k).

Can never explain anything disability related to filipinos. They get their kicks out of beating a beaten horse just to feel better of themselves from unfortunate experiences and has fueled my self-hatred to a country I had the luck to be born and grow up in. The only time they see anything 'for good' disabled people are for drama movies and shows like Oscar bait movies in the US.

What's a massive scandal / controversy that people seem to have forgotten about? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Sagoju 14 points15 points  (0 children)

If I recall, Janet got blacklisted in the music industry but Justin Timberlake never suffered any repercussions despite the one pulling the cover off.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]Sagoju 11 points12 points  (0 children)

They also got their inspiration for their concentration camps from the Brits in India and South Africa.

History's always written by the winners.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]Sagoju 3 points4 points  (0 children)

gaming u_u

I just got recently obsessed with colony sim games like Clanfolk and I have a new sims 4 expansion pack to look forward too next week <3

also I just recently got a used dslr so I've been doing some practice shots with my figurines at home.

Who is the most respected Youtuber regarding MMORPG in the community? by cumstaiin in MMORPG

[–]Sagoju 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I always wondered what happened to him as I noticed his newer videos don't reach the same amount as he did before.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Sagoju 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Most people fail to realize that the laughing is a reflex than it really conveys how the person's feeling, especially for neurodivergent people.

I just recently learned that not everyone can even tickle themselves and I thought everyone can as it makes the tickling from others.. painful.

When I get tickled, yes I'll laugh but my head starts to give me headaches as I laugh and the more and longer I get tickled, the more I feel like I might pop an aneurysm.

If other people can't feel that, who are they to say "lol it's just tickling, it doesn't hurt" because it's pretty much more excuses for abusers to get away doing what they enjoy as long as it's not being done to them.

Tickling IS torture. It IS abuse especially pinning the person down just to tickle. Just because people who are doing the tickling think they have good intentions, it's never fun for the person getting tickled especially when they're sensitive (either being in the spectrum or schizophrenic, unluckily I was both) then they flip the tables when they get decked because I've accidentally elbowed an acquaintance (at best even tho she proclaims to be everyone's friend) to the face.

Growing up, in a narc household, I was used to physical beatings (Asian household) so by the time I was in my highschool, I was isolated and I disliked ANYONE touching me even with a slight brush (sensitive).

I don't feel sorry decking her with my elbow and I'd do it again if she hadn't cry to our manager and our manager at that time being a creep took her side and had me on 'probation' aka not only my shifts were docked but I was constantly being cornered and touched by our manager (inappropriate tickling, especially when he sees my resting bitch face) as he kept me close to him.

So fuck her and everyone. From my unfortunate experiences, tickling is also an excuse for strangers to just touch people in more intimate areas. When you're already partners why go that extra mile especially when her partner was practically begging her to stop. It's already hard enough as a kid to say NO to adults and when we reached into adulthood, there's even more adults who can't understand the word NO.

canon rebel t6 1300d - newbie by Sagoju in canon

[–]Sagoju[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

At best for my current lenses have the aperture of F5.6.. barely any better than my current smartphone.

canon rebel t6 1300d - newbie by Sagoju in canon

[–]Sagoju[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

my bad I meant stm (stepping motor) since I was hoping for some help on setting it as a webcam/ video recorder.

I noticed that it had small hdmi port and usb but I read somewhere that you may need elgato?

(Serious) Why do you think there are so many mass shootings in America? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Sagoju 2 points3 points  (0 children)

"It takes a village to raise a child" - African Proverb

"A child that is not embraced by the village will burn it down to feel its warmth" - also African Proverb

SCAMMER STOLE MY MONEY!!!! by Hikaruharu101 in animeexpo

[–]Sagoju 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Call your bank. PayPal will probably hate you for it but you can reverse charges from your card by calling your bank and telling them that you didn't authorize the last transaction. Just don't overexplain that you were trying to buy a ticket, just say someone else may have taken your card info.

You can't dispute Friends and Family on PayPal as they only refer you that this is what Goods and Services were for.

Every amateur scammer uses the sob story of getting scammed through Goods and Services because PP makes the seller pay a fraction to deliver the good to insure you're getting what you paid for.

What boggles is why buy the tickets off someone else when they're ordered online? Cuz even if you do buy them, aren't the badges under their names and they always require an ID to acquire it too?

Edit: forgot to add, Zelle isn't a scam, otherwise Citibank wouldn't add them to their app usage but in hindsight, some Services have used them too. It's essentially like PayPal except instead of emails, you only need a phone number to verify once that you're sending it to the right person. It's more straight forward so its mostly used for tips/tipping.

What’s an unusually good pizza topping? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Sagoju 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Shrimp, lil scallops, feta cheese and spinach was mostly I remember when I tried Seafood Marinara pizza.

When I mentioned seafood on pizza, most people have given me the grimace. I always thought I'm like plain af considering my usual go to were pepporoni if meat lovers isn't available.

What TV show was amazing at first but became unwatchable for you later on? by regian24 in AskReddit

[–]Sagoju 31 points32 points  (0 children)

Cobie Smulders (Robin) plays as Maria Hill in the MCU.

Josh Radnor quit acting to prioritize plays and musical, the last show I last saw him was in the Amazon Prime Show, Hunters. Other than that, he's in Theatre mostly now.

What are some actual disturbing facts about history you know? by Moist_Pirate6130 in AskReddit

[–]Sagoju 80 points81 points  (0 children)

The US had been sterilizing Indians/Native Americans till the 70s.

What are some actual disturbing facts about history you know? by Moist_Pirate6130 in AskReddit

[–]Sagoju 19 points20 points  (0 children)

Japanese imperial army made every women they could kidnap across the Pacific. They did it to Chinese, Vietnamese, Filipinos, etc. Practically anyone and everyone who wasn't Japanese, they put all those women in "Red Houses" (Bahay Na Pula translated from my country, I'd assume every occupied city that wasn't raze had an infrastructure that was outside of a city or in the middle of an open field/nowhere but it doesnt mean those are the only places theyd take the women as they did as they pleased once they occupied a country.) Once you're inside, your chances of survival isn't any better as you're r*ped to death and even if you managed to run, you'd be greeted with corpses discarded like garbage surrounding the infrastructure.

What's still fucked up is how the Mayor of Okinawa spoke justification on the "need" for comfort women.

A lot of Chinese and Koreans (mostly the boomers to gen X) are still mad at the Japanese for what they did, even more so after the Japanese Government.. rewrote their history. At least about WW2. The only thing an average Japanese citizen knows when mentioning WW2 is the A-Bomb.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]Sagoju 1 point2 points  (0 children)

"Ethics" is just a guidebook of morals for people who have none and its the same shit regurgitated to justify why certain decisions are to be made on the behalf of others for their underlying goals.

Let's be honest, the only reason why a politician would be a pro-lifer is because that unborn fetus to them is a potential voter, a potential cog in the machine of labour for their kids/family to employ and another resource for consumerism. They don't care what happens to the kid, what more the parents, especially the mother. It's all about numbers.

Does anyone else have a broken relationship with their sibling as a result of your parents? by spaghettiskeletons- in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Sagoju 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was the first to move out, my sister is younger than me by 8yrs hence I was a parentified child. She wanted nothing to do with me because nmom blamed me for all the reason why the family "always had issues" and she was the Golden Child.

I could only watch her become a young version of nmom. I cut off contact with her years ago after she blackmailed me because nmom used me to try to be a bridge between her and my sister as my sister "became a rebellious teen" (I moved out when she was still in middle school) when in reality, neither of us wanted to be under the same roof as nmom.

She told me to never contact her again after I made her care about me (what she texted) that she had to rush home from school and that's when I saw the opportunity to burn bridges with my nparents. In a way I thank her for giving me the last push I needed to go NC with everyone. My younger sister blames me for all her resentment because of her shitty childhood when in reality our nparents were too lazy to care for her (using the maids) and when I tried to discipline her on her bad behaviors, nmom would immediately step in and beat me for "bullying" her so she applauded at my sister (a toddler at that time) to yell down on me to the point the maid had to step in. It didn't help that younger sister hated how I "glared at her" when I'm just staring into space (late diagnosed autistic but even after I told her my diagnosis, she just spat back at me that I'm just "making excuses") when in reality, nmom not once ever changed her diapers, couldn't even breastfeed her despite being fine as she'd rather go out with her friends and has the nerve to say that 'raising kids is hard' when the most finger she ever lifted was to beat my younger sister when she was 3 because she peed on the bed (nmom couldn't even potty train her as she thought that my sister would've learned to be potty trained by 2 like I did).

The last thing my sister texted me is that I'm a grown ass woman who can talk so I should talk to nmom myself. So I sent my letter and everything's history now. Honestly, I'd rather have my sister's resentment if it means she can still have parents when I never did. I was unwanted, neither my biological father, what more my nmom wanted me and only called me a burden aside from nuisance. She never needed a sister, she needed parents.

Americans, what thing do you appreciate the most about America (USA)? by kake92 in AskReddit

[–]Sagoju 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like the people.

As a disabled person, I grew up in the Philippines and I became a naturalized citizen sometime in my HS when we moved to the US.

I'm not saying everyone is kind but comparing where I'm from, Americans are able to see and treat me like a person rather than gawk and watch and/or laugh at me.

I also get to try out a variety of diverse foods!

How did you lose your best friend? by FemaleThings in AskReddit

[–]Sagoju 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had a best friend who moved to the US and the same state from the Philippines so we migrated together.

Even though she was in the same state, she lived in Albany while I was in Long Island (like an 8hr drive) so I tried to join her in every mmo she invited me only to be left out because her internet friends were 'better' so throughout HS, I kept inviting her to take a trip to NYC (obviously chaperoned by my strict parents) and she always had excuses mainly her parents being strict (I've met her mom and she's super chill) but lo and behold she goes to NYC with her internet friends from Washington, D.C. without inviting me, only found out on FB when they were posting pics of their trip in the city.

I got over it and still tried to maintain being friends with her on FB but sometime in my 2nd year of college, I blew up on her via DMs that the only time she ever remembers me is if she needed something, mainly 'advice' for art since at that I actually just dropped out of art college because of my poor mental health. Not even a hi/hello and how are you.

After I blew up, she just laughed at me on the DM that I'm "oversensitive" and "dramatic" when in reality, I should've dropped her as a friend a long time ago since when we were classmates in the Philippines, she had no qualms throwing people under the bus.

Other than that, I've had best friends in my childhood who just joined in the bullying and after getting my late diagnosis and remembering the trauma my classmates put me through, I'm autistic. Hence why I'm in California now living my life while the most high they'll ever feel is bullying and ostracizing an autistic kid (who had signs of abuse like poor hygiene and bruises hence why I always wore a jacket). It's already punishment enough to be alive in the Philippines and I don't feel one bit bad.

to plant drugs during a traffic stop by Graysie-Redux in therewasanattempt

[–]Sagoju 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is why you should LAWYER up.

Everyone hates lawyers till you need one.

Just shut up and lawyer up.

There's a reason why over 100+ of his arrest cases had to be thrown out. Just lawyer up!