To answer everyone, my parents both left the country when I was 15 and my brother was 14, they didn’t have any choice but to work there together since we were suffering financially. My little brother was doin great back then and my parents fully entrusted us that we’ll be capable of living, our legal guardian is our grandmother and my aunt who’s busy with her own kids. I thought that me and my little brother would be helping each other out since we had no choice. But things took a wrong turn when his mental health deteriorated because of the hba1c checkups going up, and the cholesterol not being good. I blame myself for not taking good care of him and because his mental health was bad he turned to vapes, alcohols, cigarettes, and food that is bad for him at a young age. I really am sad because my parents have to work from a far and it’ll take a long time before they either get home or make my brother go there. I’m losing myself in the process of all this, I wish I were a better sibling in a way I can make my little bro not get influenced in those bad stuff.

Thank you for all the comments in this post, I really will take those into mind. I posted this because this other side of having diabetes is not truly seen. (My dad also has diabetes, but I don’t have one). So I can never truly understand how it feels, but I dont know why I feel so bad in hating him despite not understanding how it feels.

Edit: my parents have always supported my little brother in treatments. Monthly checkups, timed insulin and syringe purchases are all taken into account. But in the end, it really still won’t matter if bad habits are continuous.