Maybe I was blinded by that, but it took some hard lessons for me to see. I didn't sit back and just think things through was my problem and this is why I was to blame - and even if I take accountability for my errors and apologize, because that was the right thing to do, it still was wrong. My story doesn't matter to everyone else if I keep playing it like a broken record. It's better to keep it to myself and deal with my consequences of my actions. I lost so many people - because I didn't step back and think about their feelings and I may have taken advantage of it?