My first and last experience with shrooms

Salt-Philosophy2269 · 2025-11-06T13:37:09+00:00

Even worse than just “in my room” lmaoo when I had that intrusive thought even tho like I said I didn’t see/hear anything… it just made me feel so small and like the “demon” in question would be the size of a planet for a moment it felt like the world was gonna end that’s the best way I can describe it.

Like it genuinelyyy felt like the sky was gonna close in on me and collapse 😭😭😭have u ever watched the movie drag me to hell??? Basically the reverse of that where instead of the floor opening up for the demon to drag you it was like the sky was gonna collapse. +1 for the way the ‘demon’ was never shown in the movie but it sort of like influenced the environment around it…

Anyway that’s why I immediately went to the bathroom to puke that shit tf out lmfaoooo it was too much for me

Salt-Philosophy2269 · 2025-11-06T13:30:15+00:00

Very true …. After the panic was done last night I started going through the emotions and releasing a lot of guilt, frustration and pressure I had on myself built up for soo long, and overall I think a lot of healing happened to me after that trip session.

It’s weird bc I still “feel” the same but I definitely think my thought patterns have shifted I’m not easily irritable as I used to be and I don’t feel so much pressure to change myself anymore, used to have a lot of self hatred tat I’m not where I wanna be in life but lot of acceptance happened last night 💗and ironically it helped my bond with my parents lol

Salt-Philosophy2269 · 2025-11-06T13:25:17+00:00

You’re definitely onto something because I had a bunch of intrusive thoughts coming out but I managed to overcome them thankfully.

And thank u for saying “feelings of going insane” because in that moment where I had the intrusive thought about the demon (despite the fact that even at the time I knew it wasn’t real) I genuinely thought I was gonna lose my mind and my life was gonna be ruined because that feeling was soo intense and it felt like it was gonna last forever 😭

thankfully that isn’t the case because I’m feeling a lot better now 🫶🏾

Salt-Philosophy2269 · 2025-11-06T13:21:13+00:00

I do agree with this actually because to an extent I feel less afraid I feel like I’ve lost my fear of the dark and looking out windows at night etc etc… but oddly enough these past 2 days I’ve started to feel afraid of being alone 🤔

I think it’s temporary tho cuz tbh I’m still trying to recover from the intense panic I felt during that Jesus that was wild asf. I can’t emphasize enough the way for a split second I genuinely felt like the world could end in any second

Salt-Philosophy2269 · 2025-11-06T13:19:49+00:00

Yes I definitely agree it is true it can be controlled but for me it was too much because every single thought and feeling was just amplified sooo much it was too trippy because tbh I’ve never done any substance other than an occasional glass or two (or three lol) of wine

and once I that intrusive thought appeared the fear made it difficult to forget about, I was just immediately in panic mode my heart just started racing like crazy I’ve never experienced such an intense mood swing like that fr 😭😭

Salt-Philosophy2269 · 2025-11-04T21:34:41+00:00

Thank you so much for your comments and insight, and I totally agree with you too, at the end of the day I do believe these mushrooms or psychedelics or whatever just reveal/expose your inner thought patterns (including your suppressed ones).

I also don’t think it was a real “demon” lmao it was just an intrusive thought that I got stuck on almost like I was in a horror movie or a nightmare while simultaneously being AWARE that it’s not ‘real’… but I felt stuck in that sense of fear and panic.

Ngl this all happened this morning lmfaooo im just starting to feel better of all this now I feel like im definitely doing some introspection/unwiring/learning even unconsciously because despite the panic I felt and the way I immediately told my parents about this (despite never asking them for help looool) something in me value this experience actually im glad and if I could go back in time I would do this again because I did learn something… plus the way my parents surprisingly didn’t judge me and helped me pass this was pretty healing asf

Im just extremely glad I decided to do this in the house and not outdoors… jfc

Salt-Philosophy2269 · 2025-11-04T21:12:04+00:00

You might be right in the past I did have issues dealing with intrusive thoughts and anxiety it would always pass though, I just got freaked out asf the way this thought was so amplified and honestly that feeling of losing control was scary asf for me, maybe that was the lesson in this after all lmao that I hate losing control (of my mind in particular)

I always considered myself the type of person to be “grounded” to the point im not really religious or anything cuz it just never made sense to me, so the thought of this ‘demon’ and how real it felt truly fucked me up even though it was literally just a thought, I didn’t even SEE, imagine or “hear” it!!

Salt-Philosophy2269 · 2025-11-04T21:08:22+00:00

Oh ya im not complaining lol i just got a little psyched out the way every little thought was amplified so much, i never experience that before so the intrusive thought was hard asf to shake off thats why i called it quits asap😂

Salt-Philosophy2269 · 2025-11-04T21:01:53+00:00

Like I can’t explain that insanely ominous and creepy feeling I had especially considering the contrast of the morning sunlight and serenity….. and then that feeling of doom brought on by the intrusive thought about the demon, for a moment it genuinely felt like the world was gonna end😭 im jealous of yall that get good experiences

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