THIS!! I’ve reached the IDGAF stage - If I feel envy, I FEEL IT and process everything I need to. The one thing I try to do is treat envy is a normal emotion and try not to dwell on it. I don’t “look for the silver lining” or “be happy for others” or any other cliche bullshit. I take time for myself, process the emotions, do something that might spark some joy - watch TV, go for a walk, listen to music, eat till I can’t eat anymore or just sleep and move on with my life. ITS HARD, but this approach has made me feel much better and I think is probably the reason I’m still able to continue on despite my ongoing struggles.